Cool Contemplation

Holidays.

2010-07-06T22:48:00.002+08:00

I'm back in KL now. At least until August. Finished my finals and thank the Lord that I passed all my subjects.

I've been hanging around, meeting up with old friends. Shopping, eating and watching movies everywhere. Waiting for Arika to come back from Kuching so that I can go on a Ladies' Night with her and also together with Suet Mei. I've been going out almost everyday. Can't seem to stay at home cuz' there's nothing much to do except to pig out on snacks and watch TV the whole day.

Anyways,

Yesterday night : Went out with Sarah and Wei-Liem to Pavillion KL for a movie.

Today : Went out to KLCC with Jack Kee.

Tomorrow : Facial appointment and gym at Celebrity Fitness @ Wangsa Walk
Dinner at Uncle Allan's place

Thursday : Lunch with grandparents, aunt and mom.

Friday : No plans yet. (Maybe hang out with Gordo and Fai Fai)

And so on and so forth...

Out of Phase.

2010-02-02T04:41:00.003+08:00

My close aunt passed away yesterday morning at 9am due to a condition called Aneurysm (rupture of the blood vessel in the brain). Her death was so sudden that I didn't even get to come home just to see her last days. She was in coma for a few days right after her brain surgery. I had no idea about this until sis told me on the phone on Friday night. Her surgery took place two days before that. My parents intended to hide that from me. For fear of affecting my studies whatever bull crap.

Truth is, my biggest mistake and decision made. Is that I decided to skip church on Friday night just to go to Penang with my friends (without telling my parents). I'm a fat liar. I know. And I did so many stupid things there that night no one else could imagine. I blame myself for it. I blame myself for that decision. I blame that if I haven't had gone to Penang and skipped church, God wouldn't have taken my aunt away. If only I mentioned about my aunt's condition in prayer meeting sooner, I wouldn't have lost her. I should have paid more attention on what's going on. Instead of fulfilling my selfish worldly desires all the time. Why did I waste my weekend by not going back to see her?

I'm really sad now ya know. I skipped my morning classes right after I heard the news. I couldn't sleep at all the night before and true enough the something terrible happened the next morning. I couldn't focus during my lab session in the afternoon. I wasn't really being myself when I was with my friends. I insulted Sanjay for whatever reason (I don't really remember what was the conversation about or was there even a conversation??) I lashed out at Gordon in Facebook. I shouted at Sandave that I didn't want to talk to him anymore in the middle of our conversation while he was trying to help me at that time. I really didn't mean all that to happen. It's just that, she was really close to me and she really cared a lot about me. I love her and I just couldn't believe that she left us all just like that. She is a very nice lady.

Look, whatever that I might have said that hurt you or insulted you, I'm really sorry. I wasn't really feeling well at all. And I don't mean it. I'm very sensitive now. So please... Just bear with me for a few days k? I'm going back to KL for the funeral on Wednesday.

Finally with Fast Internet Connection.

2010-01-26T02:09:00.002+08:00

I've lost touch with blogging and writing. I'm sure my readers have gotten tired of waiting for my update. I'm sorry. Because almost every time when I want to write something, it has to be something emo. I used to want to write about where I went and what I did, uploading pictures and stuff. That touch ain't there anymore. Maybe it's cuz' of the uploading thingy, I'm kinda lazy for that.

Ah well, no one's reading my blog anymore right? So I guess it's kinda okay for me to write again here. I treat this place as my solitude. A friend that I can just talk to without having to get any remarks or feedback. But if you guys are still reading this, I'm sorry to say but it's gonna be 90% emo stuff. "Why isn't this girl happy all the time?" I wish to answer that question. I'm happy at times. I'm happy when I'm with my girlfriends. I'm happy when I'm with my best friend (well, not all the time). I'm happy when I go shopping (only when I'm loaded and not fat). Basically I'm okay la. It's just that now is the time when there is something called the Bug Season. You don't get to see this kind of green bug in KL because it's only in places with padi fields. So now is their season to loiter in gangs in our rooms and hostels. Which is really really really annoying. The worst thing is, they bite. They left my swells and scars and blood. Now this is the phase which I am going through and I am not happy with it at all. I just wish to fly back to KL until this Bug Season is over. I have attacks in my hostel every night. Screw you all la.

I'm not getting any attention from Sandave at all. Probably it's because of his exam. I try not to think about it, but it's making me curious. It was his birthday yesterday and I wasn't back in KL to celebrate it with him. For two years consecutively. It sucks. And I feel lonely. He's not giving me the attention I crave for. But if he gives me too much then I'll think that he's controlling me like shit. I don't know what I want. Maybe I want his company near me. We're 6 hours drive away from each other. Because of the lack of attention, I then seek it from my best friend, Gordon. But he's currently busy showing attention to someone else and it would not be nice to interfere. Gah, I'm such an attention seeker. But hey, it applies to myself seeking attention from certain people only. Like those mentioned. So don't think I'm an attention seeker. Contradicting to what Gordon might think.

What the hell is wrong with me?? I have an Entrepreneurship exam coming up by the end of this week and I haven't started at all. I am so left behind with tonnes of lectures to revise but I don't have the drive to do it. I don't wanna fail any subject for this coming CA. Let alone sitting for a supplementary paper. Oh please. Don't. Let. That. Happen.

Study study study! Stop grieving on your miserable life, Michelle. Why do you have to be such a scumbag. Get up already! You don't even go jogging anymore for pete's sake! *cries*

I have no motivation to myself.

God ain't speaking clearly to me anymore.

=(

Of Complaints.

2009-09-17T14:00:00.003+08:00

Why do I have to get "cha-ed" for the good things that I do? Almost everynight in my room I curl up on my bed not feeling happy...

Why is it that when I need someone to talk to you are always not answering my calls? It is either you are too busy doing something or sleeping. Takkan you don't have time for me meh? =(

I wanna blog and express out all my innermost feelings but I am just too afraid that some information might leak out somewhere or worse, could it be that my dad has been stalking my blog all along? NO WAY I DON'T WANT THAT TO EVER HAPPEN TO ME.

Bugger, I have a report due tomorrow and I have not got a single clue on what to write. I have to come out with a proposal soon for my upcoming Rotaract project right after convo.

Somebody just needs to stop acting so sweet and nice but turns out to be a complete bitch behind the scenes. No, not just you, but a few. Stop being bitches. So not up to standard.

And stop telling me that whatever I write in this blog is childish or harsh or whatsoever. It's my blog and I can write whatever I want whenever I want wherever I want!

Blogging Again @ the Aimst Cyber Cafe

2009-08-13T16:27:00.002+08:00

Here I am sitting in front of an old computer in the Cyber Cafe of my good ol' varsity. It's good to be in touch with what's happening around but this time I don't think I'm really a fond of being "famous" socially like how I was. It wasnt' very pleasant though.

So far so good. Yesterday was our first day of orientation week and it was long and boring. However it ended in the afternoon so I had time to return to my apartment for a nap. But I had one of those severe menstrual cramps again so I had to lay in bed and moan and groan and roll and flip and yadayada. Nicole came over and talked for a while but after that she handed me some paracetamol and I had to continue sleeping. I skipped my lunch, so she bought me a bun to keep me from being hungry. So sweet of her. Love you!

Went to CF at night and I was so surprised that about 70% of the members are doing their Foundation studies this year. Wow. Really big group. But anyhow after CF I went up to Nicole's apartment and hung out with the gang until 1.05am.

I got up at 7.45am. But I only managed to drag myself out of bed at 8.25am. Got dressed and went down for breakfast. Then Nicole, Sang and I decided to hang around at Central Square and do some shopping, since there is no orientation for the day. Right. I wore a black MNG basics tank top and a black quarter pants. I got stopped by a guard. He told me in front of all the students, passers by and pedestrians that I cannot wear like that. I told him that I AM NOT GOING TO ENTER THE BUILDING. But he kept nagging me until I got fed up I just walked away. I AM PISSED THAT AIMST IS STILL AS CONSERVATIVE AS EVER! Or maybe even becoming more conservative. Argh!

So that left me to hunt for an overcoat at CS. Unfortunately I didn't get to buy any overcoat at all. But ended up getting myself a nice pair of black skinny jeans, a pair of black pumps and a GC belt. Simple and nice. Hmmn.

I shouldn't be wasting money. My shopaholic habit is not done with me yet. Shoo!

Wanting the declaration of freedom from Aimst,

Milo.

Back Again.

2009-08-12T00:34:00.003+08:00

Alas, I'm blogging again. God knows how long have I been abandoning this blog. But then again, I'm back in Aimst again. This time doing my degree and I'm gonna be here for the next 5 years or so. Doing my bachelor in Dental Surgery (BDS).

I got here around 11 something in the morning. Started my journey after sending my sister to school. Okay let's not talk about my day and all.

I'm depressed. Like, really really depressed. Not because I'm coming back to Aimst to do dentistry. I'm grateful that God gave me a chance to come back and further my studies, otherwise I wouldn't know where else to go. I'm sad because I miss my pie. I'm sad because I just realized how rotten I treated my parents while I was back in KL and now they are sacrificing so much for me just to get me back on track. I just took too long to realize how much they've done. I'm sad because everything is so uncertain. Yes, the future is very very unpredictable. Especially how the way I see it. And then how my lecturers are gonna be like? That's another concern. Because the degree programme is so much more different than foundation. Also, will I be able to adapt well once again here? For the next five years? I'm so fed up with my insecurities that I just wish to roll them up into a ball and chuck them into the drain. Yes, I think a lot. And one thing that I am so frustrated about is the bloody bugs that are loitering around my room! I've killed about a fifty of them by now. Is it even bug season? They just can't seem to leave me alone, can they? The scars which they left on my skin last year have faded, and now they're gonna come back. My skin ain't good at all. So it's gonna get really sensitive once I get my scratchy hands on them. And I don't have a broom in the house. Gah...

Alright I think I better get to bed. My first day of orientation week starts tomorrow at 8am. Good night peepz and do pray for me ya? Thanks.

Wishes that God would guide everything for her,

Milo

Specless.

2009-07-09T23:53:00.004+08:00

Okay, recently I got myself contact lens.

And this is how I look like.

Yikes!

Total korean / japanese!

Oh Yeah! My Newbie Baby!

2009-06-25T22:00:00.003+08:00

I'm on budget.

So this darling here will do.

Muakssss!

It's either the black, or the orange.

But they don't have black no more!

Lifeless Days.

2009-06-14T01:05:00.002+08:00

I want it all out!

Argh! Sometimes I just couldn't tahan the pressure. Day by day, it's the same thing. Blah blah blah. Can I get out of there?

Oh well, I went out to Sunway Pyramid with Pie yesterday.

And I only managed to buy stuffs from a few stores.

MNG, Body Glove and Forever 21.

Thank you, darling.

Miserably, I have to go back to work tomorrow.

Taking my sister along with me to work out in the gym in the morning. Provided if she wakes up in time. Damn it.

Anyways, I think I'm going to bed. I hate being frustrated just because I'm PMS-ing.

My Aimst Offer Letter.

2009-06-08T23:23:00.003+08:00

Thank you, God.

Thank you for allowing me to be accepted into Dentistry back in Aimst.

I hope this is what You want me to do.

I'll study hard to make You proud.

Please guide me as I walk through the hundred times tougher than Matriculation road for the next five years.

Don't leave me, God.

I need You to walk this five years' path with me.

I trust You, Lord.

Thank you.

Phew.

2009-05-15T23:28:00.003+08:00

I just want to praise the Lord God Most High.

Yesterday, I was at work. I knew that I would be receiving a Poslaju package today. And that little package is gonna determine my life. And future.

I felt dizzy and I just wanted to throw up. I couldn't take it cuz' of the anxiety. I bursted out in tears in the office of True Fitness. My manager allowed me to take MC. So my mom took me home.

I went to collect the package from my post box. I took it back to my room. Climbed on the bed and tore it open.

A second envelope.

There it goes. With trembling hands, I pulled out the papers.

A little note dropped out which said "PLEASE APPLY FOR THE DEGREE AND DIPLOMA PROGRAMMES OF YOUR CHOICE IN AIMST UNIVERSITY IMMEDIATELY".

I felt weird. So I read whatever that was written on the papers. When I saw my grades and the marks. I sped off and searched high and low for my sister's calculator. Counted everything. And that's it.

I made it. I qualified.

Thank you, God. It was all You.

Now there's a choice. Between medicine and dentistry.

Now I have to worry whether or not I can make it to the 75 seats available for dentistry.

Yikes.

But really la, thank you God. So much.

I can smile again.

Tired.

2009-05-08T23:14:00.001+08:00

Yeah I might be working from 11am to 9pm, but I'm still tired k. I might not be standing the whole day. I get to walk around occasionally. But I'm still tired.

I wanna talk to my best friend.

Finally.

2009-05-06T01:33:00.003+08:00

At last I got a job.

Saved myself from all the naggings I get day and night from my parents. And grandmother.

I've been like a dump at home. Sitting and doing nothing. Staring out the window. Like a dump. Or a dungu. In other words.

Well, today's my first day. I have to undergo training first before I can start for real. Met Yasmeen. At least I have a friend with me.

And tomorrow's second day of training. Hopefully by Friday I can start work. But I am a bit afraid. First-time-job- syndrome I guess.

So yeah, at Pavillion. True Fitness.

Although I saw a very unpleasant forum criticising about TF. But whatever la, dunno don't care about those people.

Because of Sylvia.

2009-04-27T21:51:00.003+08:00

After having lunch with my aunt and family, and after getting down the car, I realized Sylvia went missing.

Then I realized that I left her alone in the car. Knowing that she was going to die anytime soon, I dialed her number many many times. Sandave and Gordon helped too. All I wanted was my mom NOT to find out that Sylvia was in the car.

At last, Gordon managed to kill her. And she rested in peace in the car. My sister was a life saver. She took Sylvia's body and kept it safe when my mom fetched her from tuition.

When my sister handed in Sylvia's body, I was so relieved that my mom didn't find out. Because Sylvia's body contains some information which could not be let out.

I took Sylvia's body and laid her down. I set up the defibrillator on her. And her heart started pumping again. She's alive now. Just that she's safer in my arms again.

I will never ever leave you, Sylvia.

My love for you is eternal (unless of course you don't screw up).

I just want you to know how important you are and how much you mean to me.

Because if mom diagnoses you, that's the end of my life.

See Sylvia, don't ever get out of my sight again.

You belong to me, and only me.

I love you, Sylvia... My handphone.

I think I am in Love.

2009-04-24T01:28:00.003+08:00

You people, please don't think I'm crazy.

Watch it.

But I think I am in love.

Gordon is an Adult!

2009-04-23T00:12:00.006+08:00

On Tuesday was Gordon's birthday. We decided to go over to Midvalley for Chili's.

So yeah.

The starter's dish was my favourite.

"Bottomless Tostada Chips with Salsa sauce and Beef Queso"

*Oh dear so nice!* =D

I destroyed my Old Timer with cheese before I got to snap a pic of it.

I feel the sin for eating the whole burger myself. *like a pig*

That's Gordon's dish

"BBQ Beef and Chicken"

*Oh so nice also!*

The ham and cheese is good. =)

I recommend all food mentioned especially the Bottomless Tostada Chips. I wish my mom could make the Beef Queso.

Anyways, Gordon's so old already! =P

Of Questions.

2009-04-21T05:17:00.004+08:00

I don't really remember the last time I did a survey on my blog. Just out of me being an insomniac for tonight, I thought I'd just pop this out. Got this from Wei-Liem's blog btw. I miss that guy lar!

1.) What is your name?

Michelle. Low Whye Syn?
2.) Do you find it annoying when surveys ask for your name?
Well, depends lar.
3.) What do you plan to buy in the future?
Hopefully in a few months I am able to get myself an iPod Classic, hopefully a new laptop, and a CAR! (which will never happen to me - I meant the car).
4.) Where did you get the underwear you are currently wearing?
I think my mommy bought it for me as a birthday present. Oops!
5.) How many pairs of Converse do you own?
I had one. Several years ago. Cheap stuff.
6.) Who is your favorite “That ’70s Show” character?
Erm, sad to say, I don't know because I don't really watch TV. Is that on Starworld?
7.) There is a mummy standing behind you. What do you do?
If you're talking about "Mommy", I'll shut my laptop down. If it's a mummy, I'll be wondering why's it in my house.
8.) What do you think of Miley Cyrus?
I don't watch Hannah Montenna. But I like a few of her songs. I like "See you again" and "Fly on the wall".
9.) Do you tend to think that you are always right?
I'm a very humble person. Hence, I don't always think I am. I have my own ways. =)
10.) Top Five Favorite Songs:

Wild Horses by Natasha Bedingfield
Goin' Crazy by Natalie
Supermassive Black Hole by Muse
Bella's Lullaby by Edward Cullen
Miss Independent by Ne-Yo

11.) What was your favorite toy as a child?
Barbie dolls! Till now I still like 'em. =P
12.) Have you thought more about your funeral, or your wedding?
I'm not even sure if I'll get married. Funeral? I could imagine a few people crying their hearts out.
13.) Dinosaurs or Unicorns?
Unicorns! I'm a fairytale sort of person, remember?
14.) What is your favorite musical?
I love The Sound Of Music. I grew up with it.
15.) You need new jeans. Where do you go?
The first store I'll go to is Giordano. Then there's Levi's.
16.) Do you play the Sims 2?
I'm not even done with the first game.
17.) Do you think Harry Potter is at all immoral to read?
Not at all. I think it's totally cool. I can't stand it when people say that it's against religions and all those stuff. Oh come on la wei.
18.) What do you think of Maroon 5?
They're cool!
19.) What about Coldplay?
Nice...
20.) Fall Out Boy?
Love them. But I get tired of their songs fast.
21.) Katy Perry?
My sis has her whole album. I just listen to it.
22.) How about The All-American Rejects?
They rock! I lurve the recent "Gives you hell".
23.) Have you ever snuck into an R-rated movie when you weren’t old enough to see it without parents?
First of all, my parents don't watch movies in cinemas. And does The Da Vincci Code counts?
24.) The Wii or Xbox 360?
I'm a bit outdated with games here. This should be Gordon's question.
25.) Team Demi/Selena or Team Miley?
Demi Moore or Demi Lovato? Dunno la.
26.) Do you know many Emily’s?
Yeah I know an Emily! She's a really pretty girl! She's my cousin's colleague.
27.) What do you think of the Jonas Brothers?
I only got to know about them when I came across the movie "Camp Rock". Not really crazy about them. I'm more towards The Click Five. =P
28.) Have you ever slept in a tent, indoors or out?
I slept in a tent while I was in Form 2. Indoors, of course. Out, meaning hotel rooms, friend's house and I slept in a church in Johor before.
29.) What is your favorite kind of Girlscout cookie?
Chipsmore!
30.) Do you enjoy surveys?
Only I feel like blogging but have absolutely nothing to blog about.
31.) What do you hear at the moment?
The sound of the rain out the window, my mom preparing food in the kitchen and the bubbles in my fish tank.
32.) Why do you think so many people love myspace?
I don't know and I'm not interested.
33.) What do you think of people who do illegal drugs?
They'll get what they deserve.
34.) Do you watch the Olympics?
I didn't get the chance to cuz' I was in campus, I think. No TV.
35.) What are your top five favorite stores?

Earrings!!!
Kinokuniya
Borders
Tower Records
Any clothes store of my taste

36.) Do you like the new Weezer album?
I've only heard of the "Beverly Hills" song.
37.) What did you think of Panic at the Disco taking out the exclamation point in their name?
Then I'll lose the taste of their originality.
38.) What is the worst job you have ever had?
As far as I can remember, handing out flyers and promoting, trying to get the customer's interest, in the end I just get rejected so many times. *emo*
39.) Have you ever been to Minnesota?
Where's Minnesota? Oh I know! Somewhere in the US right?
40.) What is the strangest thing you’ve ever seen on TV?
When Timmy wishes for all the weird weird things from his Fairly Odd Parents.
41.) Do you watch informercials when there is nothing on?
Sometimes only lar.
42.) What is your favorite Disney Show?
Show or movie? Totally Spies I guess. I like Nickelodeon better.
43.) Have you ever seen the Wedding Singer?
Nope.
44.) Reason people rank things?

Should I take that into consideration?
45.) Have you ever gone camping?
Oh yeah! I love nature, minus all the insects and stupid bugs in the world.
46.) What do you miss most about elementary school?
My primary school life sucked. I don't miss it at all. Maybe I miss the English story telling competitions.
47.) What do you do when you want to fill out a survey, but none of your friends have posted surveys that you have not taken yet?
I just come across one at random.
48.) What is your favorite kind of DQ Blizzard?
Erm... Oreo? Maybe the burger would be nice too.
49.) Has anything funny ever happened to you while in Wendy’s?
What funny thing could possibly happen to me? Just makan lar! Unless I trip and fall on my food.
50.) What is your current job? If you are applying anywhere, where?
I'm jobless now. I want a job. I need one! But I don't know where to go. T_T

What a long winded survey. It's 6.18 now and I'm not even asleep yet.

A very happy 21st birthday to our beloved Gordon!

Previous Pictures and Events.

2009-04-20T01:26:00.004+08:00

Okay here are some stuffs on what I've been up to.

Firstly it was David Archuleta's showcase I've been working with :

Thousands of fans at the Amphitheatre, Sunway Lagoon.

I was standing on the stage and took this picture.

This was how close I was standing away from David Archuleta.

The zoom in version of David Archuleta. He's so cute!

I snapped a picture of me and JJ from Hitz.fm Morning Crew. I was searching for Ian too but couldn't find him.

The friends I made while working for this showcase.

On Wednesday I went out with my friends to Taman Conaught Pasar Malam for fun :

My favourite type of food always found in Pasar Malam's. Fatty Lok Lok with lots and lots of chilli!

Gordon is turning 21 and this was his birthday bash. Didn't get to snap pictures though.

I was really hungry just now so I decided to make myself supper after such a long time. Two eggs, fried. =)

I think I've been pretty much wasting my time these few weeks. I need to get motivated and do something. I need a job. I need courses. I need a hobby. I need exercise.

Anyways, I need some sleep although I had plenty of them.

- Milo -

Sorry for the Long Break.

2009-04-18T19:15:00.002+08:00

Again I've not been blogging. Haven't been making it a habit eversince I created this blog. I know I've lost a lot of my readers and I'm really sorry about it.

Well anyways, I'm back in KL for a really long break. Finally done with finals and left Aimst. I kinda miss that place actually because I'm still trying to accept the fact that there are no more cafeteria or clock tower hang outs as long as I am here in my house. For me to call my campus friends out for a movie and lunch is difficult because they live quite a distance from me. The nearest is Sang, and she lives in Setapak. Gordon lives in PJ and Sri is the furthest, Klang. Unlike in campus, I just give a call or sms to everyone, 5 minutes later we can see each other at the clock tower, wearing simple and ugly T shirt and shorts. Now, we meet at shopping malls, and we dress up nicely. So there's rarely any chance for us to see each other in ugly homewear clothes, unless we go to each other's houses, which is like, really rare.

A little update on myself. I want to lose all that weight I gained while in campus. However, I've been lazy and never had the mood to exercise. Someone needs to motivate me (in a nice way). I took up a free lance job from Digi and Switch Box for David Archuleta's showcase. It was just a 4-days job, and pretty boring except on Saturday. I get to go check out the backstage and I was pretty much close to David. Didn't really get to meet him as security was really strict. More details on my next posts. I'm also hunting for other jobs just so that I can fill up my almost-empty purse. I need a job, badly.

And it's so sad that I just got to know that a man in the Hulu Kelang Chinese wet market who sells fruits committed suicide by jumping off the building. He got involved in gambling and borrowing money from "Ah Longs". So as you know, he killed himself before the Ah Longs kill him. I know him since I was young because my parents are regular customers of him. And now he ain't there no more. Sad...

I gtg now. A big gang of my relatives are here in my house for dinner. Chiao. =)

- Milo -

I'm Sick of Crying.

2009-03-06T10:15:00.004+08:00

I cried again last night...

It was the bitter and painful one which I haven't had for a very long time since last year.

I wasn't always like that before I come to Aimst and before I met some people.

I hate to hate people. I don't always do except for some exceptional cases. But this is it. I've had it trying to protect other people's feelings but letting my own crush.

I'm tired of putting bandages and plasters and stitches all over my heart when it's being torn apart over and over again. It has wounds and scars - lots of them. And I keep getting fresh cuts and wounds from time to time. Why ar?

I'm all dried up. I don't think I can shed another tear anymore. I don't feel fragile anymore. It's like my heart is being cemented.

(Note : In some situation only. My Christian friends, please do not think that I'm hardening my heart for God k!)

I'm tired. I really am. Exams are up and I still get into this. These are my last moments in Aimst, does it really have to end this way?

Cruel... Heartless... I don't know what to say anymore.

Whatever la.

Biting her lips cruelly,

- Milo -

Still in Penang... Waiting to get back to Aimst to rid the guilt.

2009-03-01T11:34:00.002+08:00

I'm still blogging here in my hotel room. Perhaps I'm gonna leave and get back to Aimst around 4 something in the evening. I can't wait for a good breakfast in Penang. And then maybe I wanna try out the really cool buffet they have in Little Cottage.

I went to Batu Feringhi walk after dinner last night. Walked around and bought a really nice pair of surf pants. Almost the same as Sandave's design, well actually it's the same la, just that the colour is different. Bought a few DVDs but those will only be watched after my exam finishes.

I'm guessing that everyone is studying now. I ain't gonna let the guilty feeling come to me while I'm at it. I'm hitting the library again after breakfast.

- Milo -

Depressing.

2009-02-28T19:15:00.002+08:00

I'm blogging here in a hotel in Penang. Exams is only two weeks away and yet I am not in campus studying. Depressing I know. I should be studying, which is why I was in the public library the whole afternoon doing Bio and Maths.

Depressing... It's so depressing... And it's so depressing to know that I am becoming blurer day by day. Why ah?

Why does it have to be this way?

2009-02-18T17:18:00.002+08:00

Sometimes I wonder. Why does it have to be this way?

Why is life so cruel? And that you just have to choose only ONE for certain things in your life.

I just lost a friend last night. A really really close one. One whom I loved dearly and really cherished him to the bottom of my heart. Well, I guess I didn't exactly lose him. I just lost the 'closeness' with him. I don't know.

There is such a thing called the 'Boyfriend material' and 'Best friend material'. And I believe only one single person can fit into either one of the catagories. I had to choose only ONE. Too bad I couldn't give him my first option. So I had to pick the second. And true enough my choice disappointed him. And it made him really hurt.

But it hurts me to get to know that I am no longer in the important position of his heart anymore. Because he is still there, in mine. And I have never given that place to anyone else yet. But sad to say that he has already found someone else, or should i say, some other people.

He doesn't give a damn anymore. And it hurts. It really does.

I want him back as a dear friend again. But for his own good, I can't. And I don't know how. I fear that we may end up being strangers one day. It frightens me. See how important he is to me? But too bad he doesn't feel the same way. He doesn't need me anymore.

I'll just leave myself to bleed. I can't help it. And there's nothing much I could do to compensate all the hurt that I've caused in him. I'm sorry.

I'm sorry.

Was all I could say.

Bleeding,

- Milo -

The Sun is Gonna Rise...

2009-01-31T07:10:00.003+08:00

I've become nocturnal during this past one week. I was like that during my preparations for SPM. But not very often in Aimst, unless it's exam periods.

I only have one more day here in KL. Then I will have to go back to Aimst, and I don't think I can return until Matriculation finishes.

CNY, busy. I only got to go out with my friends last night. Arika came and fetched me and we met up with Xiowei, Suet Mei and Jason at Old Town. Went over to Xiowei's house for some gambling. I haven't had so much of fun with my old friends. And we're gonna meet again later for some shopping and hanging out.

It's already 7.20am. I've been up the whole night and morning. Doing Chemistry, then watched Heroes. I should've spent more time in Chem, I'm slowly getting the hang of Organic Chemistry, just need to see and do some sample exam questions. I haven't done my English Assignment yet. I am so dead for that because my due date is on Monday. My Bio Fair groupmates threw me the banner to complete it. I'm so dead for that cuz' I think it's pretty not possible. I'll just have to think of something, which makes me now double dead. And then there's my Bio quiz on Tuesday, which makes me triple dead then. There are more to come, such as Chemistry quiz, Physics quiz, Bio fair and etc... Can I not mention them? T_T

I would really love to stay home and complete everything which I've not done. But I need to see my friends for the last time before I return. Guess I'll have to be nocturnal again tonight, then catch my sleep in the bus?

It's really depressing. If I were in campus, I would've finished my tasks earlier because distractions there were less (unless if you don't count Sandave in). I think I have ADD. I can't sit still! I realised that I even shake my legs when I sit, which does not happen under normal circumstances.

Going back to Aimst is indeed depressing. There are things which I do not wish to deal with. I don't even like going into my room in the first place. It's that annoying aura I feel and whatever or whoever that pisses me off. I don't really enjoy being in class either. I don't know why, I'm having some difficulties in paying attention in class sometimes. And then there are the people who annoy me to the max, just can't wait to rid all of it.

But there are some things to that I look forward to when I go back. Sandave, Sang, Gordon and Sri. The dearest people to me. Although one of them didn't recruit me into his singing group (I still can't get over the fact that he forgot about me!), I am not mad and I forgive. I know I said some hurtful things and I ask for forgiveness, but he also needs to ask for mine. Anyways, he has my full support on the day of the First Beat. And also throughout all his rehearsals, which I do not even have the luxury of witnessing. First Beat falls on Valentine's Day, I don't even know whether I'll be around campus or not. In order not to stir up further arguments, especially if he's reading this, I shall not continue about this issue.

I will be meeting my grandparents and aunties from Sabah for breakfast in about two hours time. After that I'm gonna have to pick Arika up and meet up with the gang. I need some sleep, or nap. I can't sit up straight anymore...

Zzzz...

- Milo -

Gong Hei Fatt Choi to Everyone.

2009-01-26T08:33:00.002+08:00

After talking on the phone with my dearest two guys, I fell asleep on the couch, curled up like a prawn for 5 freakin' hours! Body aching now...

Anyways, it's the first day of CNY! I woke up at around 6am + and was thinking to crawl back to my bed, but I came online instead.

After returning from Aimst on Saturday morning, only got to go to church for youth service and then did some shopping at Tesco with family. Drove to LCCT airport to pick my aunt up from Brunei. The next day did somemore shopping at Times Square. I didn't get to buy much though. Maybe cuz' I lost the mood due to my gain of weight which really makes you depressed. Maybe I should have watched my weight since the beginning itself.

Then later, nothing much la. The usual stuff. Go to my uncle's house in Bangsar and spend the rest of the day there. Melissa, Ruby and Joe are back from Australia. And Whye Choong too. Tomorrow will be spending in Rawang. My mom's side of the family from Sabah are here.

So yeah, I'm gonna sleep for an hour, then wake up to get ready for the day.

Gong Hei Fatt Choi people! =)

P/S: To my high school peepz, I'd like to meet up with you guys before I leave this Sunday.

- Milo -

Maths Test later... And then Go Home Tomorrow.

2009-01-22T13:46:00.002+08:00

In about two hours time will be my Term 3 Mathematics Test. 5% worth of marks to be added to my final paper. I've done all the questions I can possibly do. I wish I have more questions. But I'm too lazy to dig out those past year questions which Yi Cheng gave me. Saving it for my finals (I know it's not the right thing to do).

I'm blogging this in the Cyber Centre again. My laptop is with Sang. Wanted to watch Heroes but it'll only make me guilty for not studying while everyone else is studying so hard. After 5pm, my plan so far, is to go back to my room, take a bath, lie down or sleep until dinner time. At night I have a Ponggal Celebration to attend and also Naveena's birthday bash.

Anyways, I'll be going back to KL tomorrow. Bus is at 11pm, so I'll be reaching at about 4.30am. Going back with Sang, Sri and Gordon. This is the first time that we're travelling back together, the four of us. Planning to leave Aimst at about 7pm, KFC or Pizza Hut for dinner, and then lepak till 10.30pm and start walking to the bus station.

I guess I have quite some stuffs to do back in KL. A lot a lot of shopping. And then there will be my quiz after CNY, which means I need to pack some books back home and study. And I am only planning to study Chemistry and Biology. I'll leave Physics till the week after cuz' it's the last paper.

I can't wait for Matriculation to be over. But I want more time for myself to study and score well for the finals. I ain't really satisfied with my results for the past couple of terms. I hope this time I can really score. And get into the degree course I wanted.

Chiaoz peepz. Better get going. See ya all. Especially back in KL. I hope. =)

- Milo -

The First Blog of the Year.

2009-01-08T11:06:00.002+08:00

2008 has gone and now it's 2009... I'm so sorry for not been blogging for a very long time. I can't say that I was busy, cuz' apparently I have no idea what I was doing for the past week before class started.

Well, I spent my new years in Penang, again. I'm gonna get bored of that place soon. I've been going there a lot and eating there a lot as well. And all the usual places I go is gonna get me bored. But still, nothing beats KL. It's still the best. I had a really great time with Gordon, Sang and Elyl. Practically spent the whole night driving around the small island. My manual driving skills are so much better now!

I'm currently blogging at the Cyber Centre. I just finished class for the morning and waiting for lunch time to come, which is just an hour away. Instead of going back to my room and fall asleep, I figured I'd come here and blog instead. And I don't normally do this. I find that I can't really study in the room properly. There are a number of reasons. Thank God there's a study room just opposite my apartment and Jenny and I go there to study at night.

My friends said that I gained weight during the holidays. I was kinda disappointed with that fact because I've not been eating lunch and dinner to avoid the crowd at the cafeteria. Then I ended up being so starving and I had to go down to the cafe to take supper almost every night after 10pm. I think that was the reason. Supper made me fat. All my effort wasted. I'm gonna have to do something to my new year's resolution.

And now I'm brain storming on how to get back my slim body I used to have earlier this year. I don't think I can find the time to exercise due to my packed schedule. It's the third term and all I can think of is to sleep and study. No mood for anything else. Anyone, please motivate me...

My studies are getting so much tougher and packed. I hardly even have time to sleep. Just like every other student out there. And Aimst is stupid enough to cram all the major projects and bio fair into Term 3. Stupid. Dumb. Whatever la.

I don't really have any new year's resolution this year. Maybe cuz' I lost the touch of everything I used to have. My life is just not the same anymore. And I'm determined to get my old life back after Foundation.

Cut down supper.
Study really hard for Term 3.
Don't go to Penang unless I need to.
Just stick with my close circle of friends. (I don't really trust the people here no more, it's really sad.)
Don't go down to cafeteria so often at night.
Avoid being seen too much. (Cuz' in Aimst, wherever you go, people talk and talk about you. Gossip spreads like fire here. I'm suspecting that there's a hidden "Gossip Girl" or "Gossip Guy" around here.)
Lose weight if I can.
Be quiet and less vibrant (So that I don't get attention from anywhere else.)
Strongly block everybody's stares and snares and gossips mentally while walking in through a crowd.
Don't care about all the gossips about me in the past. (I didn't even do anything!)
I WANT MY OLD LIFE BACK.

Prayer :

God, please help me get through all these gossips and backstabs that I get from people I don't even know... I didn't even do anything and I'm just living my life... I need You to help me get through this... Please make them stop even if it takes to make me invisible.... Protect my friends too from being dragged down into the water especially Sandave and Gordon... Please help me to handle the problems I'm going through now (a bit private and confidential in this blog)... Amen.

- Milo -

Not Much in a Studying Mood.

2008-12-29T11:05:00.005+08:00

I didn't go back to KL for this Christmas cum New Year holiday. Was too lazy to travel far distance and I didn't want to procrastinate all my unfinished work till classes starts. It's only left Gordon and Sang in our gang, the rest went back. I wish Sri was here so that I can dance with him. And lose weight.

Well, the year is coming to an end. This month (December), was one of my most fun times I've ever had (besides in RBS). I had a really great 18th birthday this year. And I really wanna thank all my friends who organized a surprised party for me behind the library building.

A BIG THANK YOU to :

Sandave, who bought me the cake and a really HUGE present. =)
Gordon, who got me this really gorgeous angel which can light up in the dark with different colours.
Sang, who got the party goin' and protected my feelings from some people.
Sri, who "ditched" me during the term break and went out with Gordon and Sang to Midvalley just to get me my present.
Raaj, who took the trouble to go to Tesco with Sandave just to get my cake and got into loads of trouble. (I'm so sorry!)
Rashdip, who went to Tesco with Sandave too to order my cake the week before.
Kelly (my June batch roommate), for being part of organizing my birthday as well.
All others who attended and fed my mouth, face, hands and HAIR with cake. (I had to wash my hair in the middle of the night).
B9 classmates who got me a second cake in class the next day. (So sweet!)
Thank you guys so much for making me a wonderful and unforgettable party! MUAKS!

The cake says, "HAPPY BIRTHDAY FATTY. LOVE YOU AND HOPE YOU DON'T GET FAT AFTER EATING THIS CAKE." You get called a Fatty during your birthday huh?

These are my favourite. =)

Really sweet and pretty. =)

This is really beautiful which Sandave gave to me.

This gorgeous angel by Gordon.

And then there was the beautiful ring and a pair of earrings from Sang, Sri and Gordon.

How did I spend my Christmas... Basically I went to Gordon's churh on Christmas eve, rented a car and Loghes sent us there. After that, Sang, Elyl and him picked us up and we went to SP town for supper. The next day was the best. We drove to Penang and hung out there till midnight. The usual places, Pisa complex (went to see my mom), Queensbay (met up with Janarthan!), Batu Ferringhi, Gurney Plaza and Gurney walk. The really fun part was helping out the guys do their clothes shopping at Parkson Grand. Lol!

What a poser at the beach.

And then the rest of the days, in campus. B-O-R-I-N-G. I wanna go out! But it's so difficult when you don't have a car. Which leaves me here to rot. And I don't have the mood to study also. =(

Merry Christmas and Happy New Year everyone!

- Milo -

Recalling of RBS Mission Trip.

2008-12-23T13:16:00.002+08:00

Last night, I followed Shaun to Bandar Laguna Merbok Club House for a Christmas celebration organised by the youths from several churches in SP.

As I observed the whole event in general, a very familiar feeling came by me. I looked at the youths from the churches, they were all chinese speaking, Form 5 and below adolescents. Even the event itself is also chinese speaking.

I was very astonished by how the youths in the event worked together as committee members to make the event a success. They managed to bring their family and friends. The hall was pretty packed. They may be secondary school kids, but the way they work things out in the event really made me think of my RBS mission trip at Daya Gosple Centre, Johor Bharu.

At DGC, most of the teens were around Form 5 and below. Some were English speaking and most are Chinese speaking. Their togetherness and friendship are really strong and easy to handle cuz' of the small group.

Let's talk about the agenda of the event :

Opening dance. (Really good dancers and I'm really proud of them)
Keyboard performance. (Good but it'll be better if the performer could do just the solo piano)
FASHION SHOW. (I was amazed cuz' I've never encountered a fashion show before in any Christmas parties in my life!)
Sing and Praise.
Preaching by pastor. (It was in Chinese and pastor showed a really good video on John 3:16, I bet this would touch people cuz' it did to me!)
Choir performance.
LINE DANCING. (Open dance floor)

I was really really surprised that they had line dancing! I didn't dance cuz' I was busy searching for food. But anyway, I thank God for giving me the opportunity of attending this event. It really opened my eyes to what the Christian youths are like in SP. And with that, it made me miss RBS even more and I really wanted to go back to DGC along with my Macclay teammates. But I pray that if I have the ability, I can form a mission team from Aimst and together we have our own little mission trip around SP. =)

P/S: To my dearest MACCLAY TEAMMATES, if you guys were to ever drop by in Penang or SP, let's do another mission trip to the churches in SP k? I see a lot of potential in the youths and we need to encourage them more. You guys will know what I mean. I love MACCLAY. <3

- Milo -

Feels like Crap.

2008-12-09T18:13:00.002+08:00

Today's indeed the first day of my final term. I only had Physics class at 9.30am till around 10.30am. First lesson was the briefing of our Physics project which we will need to hand in after around 5 weeks. My group members and I headed to the library to search for whatever stuff related to physics. Was kinda pissed off at some computers which are not working and some idiots installed their own passwords, so we couldn't log in. Cracked our heads thinking, searching and finding. Ranging from optical fibres to rainbows to nanotechnology to natural disasters to I-don't-know-what-else-we-thought-of.

Then there was lunch and after prayer meeting, Sri and I walked over to the admin building to pay our fees. My tummy was aching since this morning till now. Felt like puking and ran to the toilet for 3 to 4 times already. And I have a prom night dance audition to attend tonight. I don't think I can perform "4 Minutes" by Madonna feat Justin Timberlake cuz' my dance partner ain't going to the prom. And we haven't even finished choreographing the dance either. And I'm not sure how to tell the AMSA president about it.

And then there's the sponsorships. We couldn't get Digi, so Tesco, Giant and MPC are some of the choices. But I didn't get their contact numbers, how am I supposed to call them? And just so you know, it's too late to get sponsorships now cuz' our prom is just 3 days away. Dream on. Another thing I don't know how to tell the president.

Doomed. Dunno la. Very frustrating actually. And I lost my enthusiasm towards the prom night. Don't feel like going at all. But I'm involved in the freakin' Ballroom dancing!

- Milo -

Back To Aimst Again.

2008-12-08T10:15:00.003+08:00

Hey everyone, I'm back to Aimst again. Term 3 is starting and it's my final term, which means I have another three months plus for my finals and then say goodbye to FIS and hello degree programme.

The one week holiday is too short for me. Well, not exactly one week, I went back to KL on Monday, came back to Aimst yesterday (Sunday).

I didn't really get to do much with friends back in KL.
Except for some activities like :

Timothy's dinner at Midvalley.

Supper at Kuan's with Arika and sis.

KLCC with Eunice.

Petaling Street with Arika and Eunice again.

La Risata with Jason, Suet Mei, Vivian and Elaine.

Pasar Malam at Pandan Indah with Dad and sis.

Pavillion for a movie night out.

I want more! It ain't enough for me. You get the feeling of being lost and wanting to stay in campus when you arrived in KL for the first few days, but as your time of going back to campus comes nearer, you get the homesick feeling. I don't know how to explain this properly. I think only those who study away from home would know what I mean (and I don't mean those who stay in Subang but return to Ampang every weekend!)

I've watched a few movies here. I should have brought back to Aimst with me Mamamia and some other DVDs my sis got. And I watched Twilight for three times already! I don't care, I'm watching it again and I won't get bored of it. I just love it.

Upon arriving my campus, I unpacked (I don't like this part), and cleaned up the room a lil'. Didn't eat dinner as I lost my appetite. Did my devotion and then slept at 9.30pm all the way till this morning at 8.40am. I know Sandave called me in between to wake me up but I slept off. Couldn't help it. Both my roommates are still sleeping. I didn't go down for breakfast. I'm starving!

Guess I'll go make myself some noodles after this. Hopefully when Sandave, Gordon and Sri comes back I'll not be as bored as I am now. Love you all. =)

Got this pic from Jason's blog. The old high school mates. Miss you guys! (La Risata Restaurant)

- Milo -

I Want More Holidays~~

2008-12-04T12:52:00.005+08:00

Why do I feel like my off days just swipe past me like the wind which just blow past your face?

It's never gonna be enough. Aimst Matriculation holidays will never be enough. Consider the fact that we only get a week off after every major exam. Life sucks.

Tuesday was a good time out with Eunice at KLCC. I watched Twilight for the second time and I just bought the DVD. I'm just too into that movie (more of into the guy). And then there's Timothy's dinner at Midvalley. Ate at Co-do Vietnam restaurant. Visited Jee Yann and his job at the Convention hall for Dutch Lady - Effective learning for kids.

We have two big kids playing dough here.

How nice... If only we have these when we were young. =)

How cute! I call this the car-bed. =P

Which would you pick, the Bigger Bear or the smaller bear? Sorry King! =P

How cuteeeee!!! Alvin's gonna love this! =P

And then there was my Spicy spicy chilli soup. Yum Yumm...

Lookin' and tastin' good huh?

The long stretch of tables and FOOD!

Christmas tree at Midvalley - pretty =)

Nice!

Yesterday what a coincidence - After Jusco, I went to Times Square and bummed into Ming Han and Calvin Goh. Not bad eh? All the way from Penang. And then I took Arika out for supper at Kuan's Coffee Shop. She made me spill out my dirty little secrets. Good job.

Movies to catch :

Boltz

Mamamia

The Sisterhood of the Travelling Pants 2

How to Lose Friends and Allienate People

Twilight (again!)

The Love Guru

Madagascar 2

TV Series to catch :

Gossip Girl (Season 2)

All seasons of Heroes (I'm watching it again)

Whatever Taiwan and Hong Kong series my sis downloaded

Catch you guys later k! Have a good day. =)

-Milo-

Term 2 Finished. Holidays Now.

2008-12-01T20:29:00.002+08:00

I just returned to KL from Aimst. Exams are done for now. The papers were okay. Managed to get through them by God's grace. But I'm kinda worried for Biology and Maths. And it's gonna take one month for us to know our results.

I haven't been sleeping for more than 3 hours for the past 14 days. I thought I'd crash on my bed when I open my room door, but I figured that I'd wait till dinner time to eat my favourite homecook dish - kicap pork leg.

Gonna have plans with Eunice and Arika tomorrow. Not sure bout' Xiow Wei and Suet Mei. But I'm gonna go out for Yum Cha session with them soon. And then there's Timothy's dinner tomorrow night as well.

Will catch up with you guys soon. Gonna go watch a movie now. =)

XOXO,

Milo

Exams... Stressed...

2008-11-13T13:01:00.002+08:00

Exams are up.

I still have around one week left.

This week is the last week of my second semester lecture. And then the next will be my study week.

I ain't going back to KL for study week like I did for last semester. Mom won't let me. And I'm kinda lazy and don't have the mood to travel the long distance.

I'm stressed. Really really stressed. I went for a jog yesterday right after class.

There are so many things to read up.

I ain't prepared.

Dunno how to get through this.

God, it's been long since I last talked to You. I always fall fast asleep once I close my eyes. The next morning is always a rush. Please forgive me. Please stay with me. Don't let go off me.

I'm blogging this at the library. Managed to complete around 50 questions of Chemistry. I have 10 more to go.

God bless, everyone.

- Milo -

Happy Deepavali!

2008-10-26T23:01:00.004+08:00

Only an hour to go and then there's Deepavali. I want to wish all my friends out there who are celebrating a Happy Deepavali and pleasant holidays. I'm actually missing some of you from Aimst here. =D

I've been wasting a lot of time here. I brought my Biology and Chemistry back for some revision but those books are still in the bag. I've been going out, out and out.

Friday - Sunway Pyramid

Saturday - Bukit Bintang

Sunday - Church and Tesco

I wanted to sleep more, like spend the rest of the day at home just snoring away. Well, I've been eating a lot. And I think I'm going to have a slight difficulty in fitting in my jeans. So, Sandave and Gordon, please make sure I exercise back in campus k? =P

Tomorrow (Monday) will be my RBS reunion! I'm dying to see my fellow RBS friends. Although I know that the number of people turning up for reunions are getting less and less. But hey, at least I get to see some of you guys.

I miss a lot of people la. My AGC friends, RBS friends, school buddies, etc. And I'm particularly missing a SNAIL here. And also the owner of Aldo. You guys know who you are.

I've got photos here. =)

Been really busy with our English assessment work. Study area the whole week every night.

But I do have my fun times as well. Typical Penang food!

One shot taken by Sri on top of a rock at the beach.

I craze over this Cheesy baked spagetti with chicken chop at Food & Tea, Times Square.

Yours Truly,

Milo.

I'm Back!

2008-10-24T23:36:00.002+08:00

I'm finally home! And it seemed like a really long time since I last came back. I really miss KL so so much. Yeah... Well, that's what I always say.

Reached KL around evening yesterday. Didn't have time to blog as I was really sleepy and tired. I'm having some weird rash beneath my right eye. It looks like someone just gave me a punch. I had no idea how it came about.

So anyway, I went out for some shopping at Sunway Pyramid today. Kinda disappointed cuz' I didn't get to buy myself a pair of jeans and a black jacket which I wanted so much. Was running out of time and I only got to reach home around 9pm ++. Thanks so much for the great traffic jam. Ahh... Come on, it's KL. What is KL without traffic jam? Okay I'm sounding really "ulu" and lame now. Hey, you can't blame me la.

I wanna go to Bukit Bintang tomorrow. Meeting up with Alice and hopefully I get to buy the things which I want.

I got a list of things which I really wanted:

A pair of jeans

A black jacket

A Canon Power Shot E1

A scientific calculator

An external hard drive (I really want this one)

A prom dress

An iPod Classic

and the list goes on...

So much movies to catch. And so much to do. I wanna catch up with Gossip Girl. I'm getting addicted to it. =)

Homesick,

- Milo -

Upside Down.

2008-10-13T14:55:00.002+08:00

I didn't know that whatever I experienced last night is now having a huge impact on me. To the extend that I couldn't get up from bed. Depression...

I'm undergoing depression...

And whatever I have done cannot be blammed by anyone else but myself. It's just me, myself and I. My fault. Everything is.

I never knew that I could cause someone to cry. I caused someone to cry before 3 years ago. And now history is repeating itself. I'm feeling very guilty right now.

Some girl out there in PJ called me names. God knows what she's calling me - only Gordon knows. And yet he said that I don't have the rights to hate her just cuz' I don't know her.

YES

True enough that I agree with you. I don't have the rights to hate her and am not in the position to do so. And why would I hate her anyway?

I hope you're reading this, Gordon.

You told me that I don't have the rights to hate her, but what makes YOU think that SHE has the rights to call me names? She doesn't even know me. And she doesn't even know MY side of the story. She's not even here to witness the whole thing that has been happening.

I know what I've done totally screwed things up including my own life. But that doesn't mean that she can just simply call me all sorts and disrespect me. It's just between ME AND YOU. NOT HER. SHE DOESN'T KNOW ME, REMEMBER?

I want anwers. I want solutions. Why does every little thing will eventually turn up to be so complicated? It's all my fault... Everything is my fault... I screw things up... I'm always at fault... I'm running dry... I can't...

T_T

- Milo -

Finished with Term 2 Quiz.

2008-10-11T17:35:00.002+08:00

Finally I'm done with the second term quiz.

Not too bad actually. Spent the whole one week of Raya holidays in campus. For the intention to study. However, it failed. Ended up sleeping and playing around. But hey, not a bad thing at all cuz' I got to get closer with some friends who stayed here with me. =)

4 subjects. Biology, Chemistry, Physics and Mathematics.

Started with Physics. Overall the paper was okay. Thank God I bothered to do Ms. Amelia's tutorial questions. Otherwise I wouldn't have known how to tackle the questions. Got back the results anyway. Got an A+ for it. =D

Then there was Chemistry. The paper was easy. But the darn thing is, I accidently used the wrong formula for one question. Well, it was the right formula but written wrongly. A very careless mistake made.

Was supposed to be "ln k1 - ln k2" but silly me! I wrote "ln k2 - ln k1". Yikes! 4 marks gone just like that.

Then there was Biology. It wasn't that easy and it wasn't that hard. Last two questions, I didn't really put in effort though. Regretting it. From now onwards, I gotta read my notes everyday.

Then Mathematics was the last paper. Well, it was pretty much easy. Thank you, Gordon, for helping me out the night before. But there was one question of differential calculas, which I wasn't really sure of the simplification. Cuz' it turned out to be really complicated towards the end. Oh well, I wanna thank God for taking away my anxiety. I always panic whenever I sit for Maths exams.

I had 2 hours of Maths class today. After returning from class, I slept throughout till around 4pm. And also Gordon woke me up.

I'm supposed to be searching for some stuff for the English project. Guess I'd better get going. See you around peepz. =)

- Milo -

Raining during the Holidays.

2008-09-30T11:48:00.002+08:00

I'm blogging in my room now. Listening to Mr. Brightside by The Killers. Well, I haven't been seeing bright sky for two days. It has been raining since yesterday. And the campus looks very... sad and gloomy. No life. Except for the annoying security guards who have nothing better to do but to pick on us. One day they're gonna get some whacking from me. =P

Gordon woke me up at 6.30am today. I hesitated to get up and then Sandave called me again to wake me up. And then there was the fire alarm which got activated accidently. And it was so annoying. I was contemplating on the bed whether or not I should run. But then, I got up anyways.

After breakfast, the apartment was really dirty. So I decided to clean up the whole place (except for the bathroom cuz' it was okay). I saw ants, swept them away and then scrubbed the kitchen counter clean. Swept the floor and rearranged the shoes. Then I arranged the kettles and utensils on the kitchen counter.

Took a shower after all those cleaning. Then I called mom cuz' I missed her all of a sudden. The Internet was kinda down a while ago but then I got it repaired. Decided to blog and then kill time with Biology till lunch time.

Phebe just smsed asking whether I will be free tonight for a cell group dinner. Yeap! Of course I'm free! Finally... GOOD FOOD! =D

Trust me, the cafeteria food have been very sucky especially during the holidays. Except for the Nasi Lemak which they serve every Monday and Thursday morning. I don't have much appetite but I'm always hungry. I don't know how to explain that. Please don't ask.

Bored,

-Milo -

Blogging at the Library.

2008-09-29T13:28:00.003+08:00

This whole week is holiday for me. But I chose not to return to KL. Spending my entire week here in this boring place called Sg. Petani.

I didn't go back because since Term 2 I've been returning to KL quite often. And everytime I come back to Aimst, I feel very homesick. And that feeling is very sickening. I hold back my tears from crying. And I try controlling myself from vomitting.

I have a test next week. Although Physics test is over, but next week there's Biology, Chemistry and Mathematics. And I am so weak in Chemistry, I need time to brush up everything I could. I know if I return to KL, I won't be able to revise everything on time. And screwing up Term 2 like I did in Term 1 is the LAST thing I'd like to do.

80% of the campus is empty. Which means, I have all the space I want. My roommates are all gone, which means I have the whole room to myself. I make full use of the library in the morning. And I am being very independent here because I do everything alone. Although Sandave, Gordon, Rajes, Loghes and Ravin are here for me. I feel so much better being in an empty campus because less eyes are watching you and less mouths to gossip about you. The feeling of relief!

Mom told me so many times to go back but I still chose to stay. Until she got kinda mad at me. Mom and Dad don't trust me. They think that I am going to fool around this whole week and not study. They thought that I would go elsewhere for my own little luxurious holiday. They think that I'd rather spend my time here with friends than to go back to my family.

It hurts to know that your parents don't trust you. Well, they never did anyway. Till this age I'm still not allowed to sleepover at a friend's house. A church friend's house. What is that? They think that I'll do stupid things. Erm, FYI, I'm 18 years old. Studying in a University. And if I try talking to them, we end up debating, furiously.

I'm staying. I'll show them. I'll show them that I'm here to study. And I am not here for holiday. Where is there to go on a holiday in Sg. Petani? Village Mall? Sigh...

I need your prayers... I've been very weak lately. T_T

Blinking Back Tears,

-Milo-

Untitled.

2008-09-20T14:05:00.004+08:00

It's a nice Saturday. Well, not exactly a typical Saturday because I have classes today. Replacement classes for the Hari Raya holiday. I'm glad that it's gonna rain later (I think), because it hasn't been raining for the past week and the weather was really hot and stuffy. Even in Sg. Petani.

It's just Jenny and I in the room. Jenny's busy studying for her upcoming exams. And I just finished lunch and decided to be in the room for the day (unless I have the urge to work out in the gym later).

I've been sick this whole week. Actually it got worse when I came back from KL on Mon suday. Yeap, I was back in KL last weekend to attend my grandma's 90th birthday dinner. Didn't really have much time to call friends out. Plus, I ain't feeling well at all after stepping foot on KL ground. Didn't even get to attend church. =(

I'm not sure what am I going to do tonight. Watched The Lord Of The Rings last night. Was supposed to play a game of Spin-The-Bottle, but that plan was blown off. Sandave and Rashdip went out. Raaj was no where to be seen. And today morning and afternoon I was blown off, again, by Gordon, for breakfast and lunch.

What am I? A feather? I don't wanna get mad la wei...

Grandma's Birthday Cake.

Family photo.

Me and my grandma. (She's 90 already)

Being a Feather,

- Milo -

Mega Indian Night.

2008-09-08T04:38:00.004+08:00

Mega Cultural Night was on Saturday night. Or shall I call it "Mega Indian Night" instead. No offense. But admit it. Majority of the programme was in Tamil, which I do not understand. I think the best performance was by the June 2008 batch. And also the Chinese drum performance. Overall I didn't quite enjoy it. I think it was kinda boring. Only got to enjoy some of the Hindi modern dance. It ain't cultural at all. The audience was rather disappointng as well. Spent RM 10 for the dumb ticket. Could have sold it off.

But still... I was so glad that I got to sit beside him. Even if it was only for a while, although I wished the moment would never end. I know it doesn't really matter to him. Cuz' he doesn't care. He never cared...

Mr. and Mrs. Smith wannabees.

Malay and Indian.

Me and Sandave.

Misses him,

- Milo -

I Cried...

2008-09-05T17:48:00.004+08:00

I cried last night.

Cried in front of Sangeeta and Gordon.

Finally, I got to know what was going on behind my back all these while.

Now I know why you seem so cold. Now I know why you seem to avoid me. Now I know that you ain't sincere anymore.

You have no idea... You have no idea at all what I was feeling and going through.

You made your own assumptions. And just letting it be like that. The impression of your friends around you on me totally screwed up. And you don't even bother to get to know the truth in the first place.

But I am happy and glad and more than willing to be friends again.

Turn back time. Turn back to the time when we first met during the Orientation week. Remember the fun times we used to have together?

Let's just forget what we went through and just be good friends. The one I used to hang out with in the cafe. The one I used to laugh and slap high five with.

I'd like to see you smile again...

I long to see myself smile again...

Bleeding Love,

Milo.

Just for the Merdeka Weekends.

2008-08-31T02:05:00.002+08:00

I'm back again in KL. Got on the bus on Friday evening (waited for an hour for it). Watched The Omen on the way. Then reached KL around 9 plus at night.

Didn't call my friends out. Wanted to hang out with Arika at the Cheese Naan mamak opposite Ampang Point but she was sick. So now I'm all alone in the living hall. Nothing better to do. I have work from uni. But nah... Too lazy to touch. Except for my English Log. Otherwise it wouldn't be fair to my fellow group members at all.

I went to Pudu to eat the famous Pudu Fish-Head. And I'm so in love with it until now. I so wanna eat it again, this time with my uni friends. And then, to Nichii Fashion City. Not much options though. I saw a really nice black cardigan. Then again, I needed to save up for a pair of good jeans and a digital camera. In the end, I didn't buy a single thing.

I'm missing a lot of people here actually. Sandave, Sangeeta, Gordon, Srinivas, Chellam, Loghes, Ravin, Clement and the rest of the gang. Great, I'm back here in KL and I'm missing you guys back in Aimst.

Oh well, will be going to Bukit Tinggi, Pahang tomorrow right after Morning Worship at church. Timothy's organizing it. And around 25 of us are going. So I'm just gonna chill there. Together with the rest of the gang. Finally something fun to look forward to. =)

Returning to Aimst on Tuesday.

Yours Truly,

Milo

And it's 5.09am.

2008-08-24T05:09:00.003+08:00

I miss my holidays a lot. I think I had fun during my one night Genting trip. My dad got myself and sis two tickets to watch Dreamz. A magic + acrobatic show. You know, the usual head cutting and body cutting and the best part was, the WHITE TIGER. What a beauty. Too bad they do not allow cameras inside the theatre.

And I was glad that we ate supper at this place. =)

And now that I am back in Aimst, Term 2 has just started. I felt a bit lost, honestly speaking. Not as in studies, as in, I felt myself being lost. Perhaps I wasn't getting used to it. But I've been in Aimst for a few months already. I am already used to it! Oh well, recently there was Mr. Mogan (Maths Lecturer)'s son's wedding. And my class, along with B5 and B7 were invited. I had fun. Especially dressing up in Punjabi suit again. I'm gonna get myself my own one, if I get to go to Masjid Jamek.

After dressing up at Thurini's hostlel.

That was the crowd. The picture of the ceremony were all in Ravin's phone.

And that was a very last minute picture. Took this just before the bus arrived.

Why am I not asleep seeing that it's already past 5 in the morning?

- Milo -

Whole Day Out with Uni Friends.

2008-08-14T12:36:00.007+08:00

Yesterday, Sri took me to his TAR College to visit some of his friends. Thought I could use the time to visit some of my good ol' long time no see friends. I got to meet Xiow Wei, But she had to rush for lectures so she couldn't stay with me long. Then there was Wei-Liem. And he was the only one who could stay with me cuz' he had a long break before his next lecture. So he took me around and around the huge campus. No doubt that Aimst University is a more beautiful campus *coughs*.

But hey, I like the way how cozy and comfort

it is in TARC. The environment is so much more different than what I experience in Uni. Then again, I guess it must be the whole crap comparisson between college and uni. I didn't get to meet Mabel, Kelso, Jethro and Sharonne. That was so sad. However I got to meet Cheng Wen and Marcus (after such a long time!). Sri and I had to leave anyways. Then off Sri drove all the way to Midvalley.

Met up with Raj-Chellam, Siva and Gordon. Went for a simple lunch at the Food Junction and I had this Korean Kim Chi Ramyun which I have been craving for a very long time but it turned out to taste sweet. I didn't really enjoy that. The best is still the old Korean Restaurant beside the Taiwan Noodles House at Ampang Point. Anways, we bought tickets to watch a 3-D Journey To The Centre Of The Earth movie which costs RM17 per ticket. Not worth it I suppose. The movie was okay, but the 3-D effect was a norm. Pets Wonderland and Toys R Us totally brought us to the childish side of us.

After Siva and Sri left us, Raj-Chellam, Gordon and I decided to catch another movie at The Curve. We got into Cineleisure Damansara for the movie tickets but sadly time just didn't permit us to watch Mummy 3, No fair! I so wanted to watch that movie. So off we went about walking and lepak-ing around the place. We had dinner at Vivo's.

That was my Cheesy Spagetti Bolognaise. =)

Gordon and his Meat Ball Bolognaise.

This Ciprus Fruit Juice tastes really good.

I just loved the effect of the blue light shining up by the sidewalk.

I finally got to see Chellam's Veena! How gorgeous it looks. =D

Bubba Gump! Inspired by the movie Forest Gump. And I'm soooo gonna give it a try the next time I come to The Curve. =)

- Milo -

Exams Finished... Term One Over... I'm back in KL.

2008-08-11T19:41:00.006+08:00

I still couldn't believe that Term 1 is over. Seems like it's just a few weeks away from Orientation. Well guys, I'm typing this post in my very own house in KL. Yupe, I'm back! But just for one week. I have three semesters for this programme. Each semester has about 4 months. And each semester has only ONE WEEK BREAK. Sucky isn't it? They just want to finish up the syllabus quick.

So yeah, I'm back. Sorry for not updating for so long. I'm just done with Term 1's exam. I don't think I did well. I thought I could do better. If only I put a little bit more effort in it. I can do better, I know I can. But I did not know why the papers didn't give me enough time to finish. Chemistry was tough, even for the Form 6 leavers who are taking my programme. Kalei said it was okay, that's because she's damn good at that subject. Chemistry was never okay for me. I didn't sleep the night before the paper. Stressing over only 4 long winded chapters. Flunk it.

Biology Section A and B was tough. Mathematics was pretty much okay I guess. As for Physics, I was supposed to stay up the whole night before the paper, but i ended up sleeping for 4 hours with my table lamp still switched on. I didn't get to finish the paper due to lack of time. How great was that.

Argh...!

Hold me accountable, Term 2 no more fooling around. I've learnt this very important lesson. Most of my friends are facing it too. Say No to Procrastination!

I only have one week break, and time flies when you're having fun. Planning... Planning... How am I going to spend this few precious days of mine?

Transcription and Translation Project. (Translation wasn't complete yet)

When you're hungry, everything will seem to taste good.

You won't have time to clean up your desk when exams are nearing.

The cat which ate a bird. You can always see it lepak-ing around the cafeteria.

Oops! You caught us sleeping in class. =P

Raj, our first customer in buying AMSA's first Ice-cream bun.

Girls in Black.

On the ground floor of the Library Building.

Clement, Raj and Chun Teik looking good in Indian traditional outfit.

My little sister.

Me and my sister. =)

- Milo -

Hello There.

2008-07-04T23:53:00.016+08:00

Hey there I just borrowed this laptop from Shaun and yay... I can go online! I can't wait for my own to come to me by next week. Cuz' my parents are coming to take me to Penang for a stay and they're gonna bring me my laptop. I really hope they would, though.

Erm... Life nowadays... Sometimes enjoyable. Sometimes not. I've been really frustrated lately. I've been distracted and I haven't been working hard as I am supposed to be. Too much drama happenning around. Welcome to the life of a KL girl stuck in Aimst University. I can have many nice people around me, but the ones close to you tend to be able to make you think otherwise. I would really appreciate some genuine people around here hello?

I'd really need some time management. Exam is coming up in a month's time and I'm still here and there. Oh come on, I wanna make it through Foundation. I ain't gonna fail. I ain't gonna repeat (that's the last thing I want). In campus, you can really enjoy with fun people around you. But at times you tend to feel emo and moody that you just wanna get out of this place and return to the city of Kuala Lumpur. It is now that I am beginning to appreciate KL so so much. I really miss that place of mine. So, for those of you in KL, APPRECIATE WHERE YOU ARE. Mark my words.

Fun were the times I went on a road trip to Ipoh with Srinivas, Sangeeta and Raj followed by Chun Teik when we picked him up in Penang. I love those moments because we get to get out of campus and Kedah!! Apparently all of us are from KL except for Chun Teik who's from Penang. I will never ever forget that fun trip. All sadness gone while we were hanging out. =)

Fun were the times where I went to a camp organized by the Chinese CF of Aimst. Two days one night in Bukit Larut, Taiping. Reminded me so much of RBS where we isolate ourselves from the flat land and be with God up in the hills with nice weather and beautiful scenery. I got to meet nice people and I love my groupmates!

But still, a picture paints a thousand words. =)

With lots of love,

- Milo -

Wanting to Know...

2008-06-07T18:24:00.004+08:00

I do have emo times in campus.

Thinking of my times in KL and what's happening back in KL.

I do wish to know.

How's everything and how's everyone?

It's been so long since I kept in touch with friends in KL.

You guys seemed to be so distant away from me.

When I listen to "From The Inside Out" by Hillsongs, I thought of John Khor. Then comes RBS.

And when RBS comes into my mind, I almost wanted to burst out tears.

I know we're all busy with our current lives.

But let's not forget each other.

Let's not forget the good times we had with each other.

Keep me updated about everything alright you guys?

And thanks Kelso, for calling me the other night. =)

God bless and take care.

Jana, make sure you take care when you leave k? Miss ya...

- Milo -

Life Without A Laptop.

2008-06-01T19:20:00.002+08:00

Sorry for not blogging for the past... erm... dunno how long. Life without a laptop can really suck. There is a Cyber Centre here at Aimst, but the connection ain't good at all. My laptop is sent back to KL for a fix. I think I can only get it back in a couple of months time. I'm using Leena's laptop now. And I can hardly go online due to my hectic lifestyle I have here.

I can barely have fun. Well, duh~ it's university. But hey, I'm only in Foundation. But still, I'm in class B9. And when you hear the name B9, what comes into your mind right away? I'll tell you, "homework" and "packed class schedule". Yes, we have hell lots of homework here which is endless. And our class schedule... famous for its crazy class hours, our breaks we have in between are 2 to 3 hours max. We end our lectures at 5pm everyday, except on Monday, we end at 6pm. I thought I was the only one complaining and whining over this problem, but it turns out that ALL OF MY CLASSMATES are whining over it too. I'm not alone!

If I don't go out to town, I'm usually studying, sleeping in the room or working out in the gym. I think I gained a lot of weight. Chips More is just so irresistable! And I've been drinking chocolate milk everyday. And taking supper. I love to go for Ramli Burgers at night. Haha. I don't think I'll be able to have a life here if it wasn't for my awesome friends around. Because I'm not in KL!!

I miss you all... Please don't think that this blog is dead. It will be dead when I announce it. And I gtg for dinner now. Love and God bless to all...! =)

Homesick,

-Milo-

Finally the Weekends.

2008-05-03T16:57:00.019+08:00

First week of class just ended. Although on Thursdays was a public holiday (spent the whole day shopping at Tesco and Village Mall). Classes weren't so bad. Just that during Biology lecture I was extremely sleepy. And Physics is going to eat me up real soon. I think it's starting to eat me up already. I love breaks in between classes cuz' I can return to my hostel for a nap or lepak around in the library and anatomy museum.

I hate Mondays cuz' I have all the 5 subjects together in one whole day. And English is up till 6pm! What a drag. Monday blues. Beware. But I love Wednesdays and Thursdays. Breaks are just so long. Slowly getting along with the schedule but I haven't really plan my time in going to the sports complex after my lectures finish. Perhaps I need another week.

I think I'm becoming a hungry ghost here at Aimst. I'm homesick and I miss Mom's cooking so badly and Chinese food. I miss McD and the Taiwan Noodle House and Korean Restaurant at Ampang Point. Maggie Goreng here ain't as nice as the ones back in Ampang. As most of you guys know, I cut down rice and the food choices here are so little. So basically I don't get to eat much. Chips More and Milo are currently my best friend. After studying at the study room, I hang out very late in the cafeteria cuz' the study room closes at 11pm. They should let it go on till morning for the sake of us who studies till late. I really don't wanna starve myself and fall sick after that. But then again, I'm not the only one suffering with this.

I kinda enjoyed this week a lot cuz' I get to go to the Anatomy Museum and also celebrate Siva's birthday when the clock strikes midnight. And seeing the guys work like mad till the break of dawn setting up the Science Fair For Yong Children (SFYC) event which was just held this morning. By order of the seniors. This week was also my first meeting with the Aimst Matriculation Student Association (AMSA) Board of Directors. Yeah, my first meeting as a deputy secretary, Roy (the secretary) already let me do most of the jottings.

Anyways, just a few pics I managed to capture. I just didn't capture the SFYC event! What a waste because it was really nice and great. The kids were just soooo cute. They're from primary schools all over Sungai Petani.

Poor baby. It used to be alive. Like you and me.

No joke. These are real dead bodies.

Real cadaver. The smell was horrible.

The guys wanted to act macho like the muscle man.

Posing with our friend, Mr. Skeleton.

Me, Mr. Skeleton and Clement.

Me, Mr. Skeleton and Sangeeta.
Posing with a REAL SKULL.

Still contemplating whether to venture into this.

The messy sight of my desk.

Chillin' out in Pizza Hut with my coursemates.

My dearest roommate Leena.

- Milo -

Classes Started in Uni.

2008-04-29T19:14:00.002+08:00

I was supposed to blog last night but turned out that I didn't get to have the opportunity to do so. You might ask me if I was busy, well, I was not. Something terrible happenned to me last night. I don't think I wanna elaborate on the situation unless I tell you personally. But it was about threats. Not sure whether to call it ragging or not. I'd rather not mention about that. No mood to recall, and it made me burst out tears in front of my fellow uni friends.

Classes started yesterday and for Monday, I have Physics, Chemistry, Biology, Maths and English all together crammed in one day. Yeah, Monday was one of the hectic days and I only got to have an hour break. But classes starts at 10am. So that I can sleep.

For the rest of the days except Tuesdays, time was kinda flexible cuz' I have long breaks in between. My class is held in the library building but I was really envious with Leena and some of the guys cuz' their classes are held in the medical faculty. Talk about being glamourous. There are nine science classes altogether (Foundation). I still meet up with Leena and the rest of the guys during dinner time and then we'll chat and chat and then study.

Alright, gtg now as I have dinner to catch up with and studying to do after that in the study room. Air-cond! Love you guys in KL and other places. =)

- Milo -

So Far My Life @ Aimst.

2008-04-27T15:50:00.003+08:00

Sorry for not updating for so long. There was no wi-fi here in the hostel, plus I was pretty busy with orientation for the past week. Since today's a Sunday, I have lots of free time but I do have some activities to catch up with later such as taking guitar lessons from Ain Hur and hanging around at the Sports Complex with Leena and Rajes.

After settling down at Aimst, orientation began. There were 250 plus students for the April intake. So during orientation we were divided into 18 groups all together and I was in Group 13. What a great group! I just love my group members so much. The rules and regulations of Aimst are strict, dress codes are not like colleges back in KL. Besides talks in orientation, we had group presentations and performances. Mascort drawings, cultural practices, sketches, dances and singing. You name it. Orientation started at 8am and ended at 11pm for the past 3 days. Imagine how tired we were. But we still had the energy to go for a mamak session at the cafeteria till about 2am after the orientation. Just so you know, my group won 1st prize in the Cultural Melting Pot activity - we performed a combination of Malay, Chinese, Hindi and Punjabi dance. And we won first prize for it. =D

Yesterday, me, Leena, Rajes, Siva, Prasaadz, Sandave and Shaun went over to Sungai Petani Central Square. We took the Aimst bus (sadly that was the last bus service) and it was a 25 minutes drive. There was Ampang Super Bowl at the top floor so we went bowling. I was so surprised and happy to win Sandave twice in a row. Well, cheated a bit la cuz' Rajes striked for me once. Hehe. Then we went to watch Forbidden Kingdom (at last!) and off we went to Old Town for lunch. The guys were actually shopping for mop sticks, insecticide, cleaning powder, toilet bowl brush and whatever stuff you can name for cleaning. Rajes and Siva looked so much like aunties getting all those. Laughed like mad when they forgot to pay at the counter. Had another mamak session till 1.30am when there was nothing else to do at the campus.

I have a guitar lesson now by the library staircase. I'd better get going. I'll be back. Class will be starting tomorrow. Finally.

Bye peepz. Miss and love ya!

- Milo -

My First Day @ Aimst.

2008-04-21T22:41:00.002+08:00

Indeed today is my first day here at Aimst University. So now I am officially a University Girl. Took about 2 hours to travel from Penang down to Sg. Petani. Reached the campus before 12pm and started the registration.

Although I've been to the campus last month, but I realised just today that the campus is actually so huge! Even the distance between the Great Admin Hall and the student's cafeteria is about the same as from my house to Ampang Point. Not to mention the sports complex. Huge! I just love the gym, the Yoga room, the Dance room and all the other courts and swimming pool you can name it. There is just no bowling alley.

Finished the procedure, and then there was parents' orientation. And I got an Aimst T-shirt, handbook and my own LAB COAT!! I was like, wow!

Proceeded to the female's hostel after that to settle everything down. I applied for the package of 2 person per room. But due to some circumstances, all we new students were put into 4 person per room. Including me, of course. And it's gonna take a while for me to switch to my permanent room. I am certainly not happy with the bathroom. We live in an apartment of three rooms. I just hope that Aimst would renovate it one day.

Tomorrow's gonna be my orientation day and orientation is gonna be a week long. Formal wearing tomorrow, and there's gonna be an oath ceremony. CF at Aimst is every Wednesday night. And church is every Friday night. Praise the Lord that I got to meet some of the CF-going people around here. Met up with Shaun from PJ Evangelical Free Church and he was the one showing me around. My roommate, Leena from Johor. And some other seniors.

New environment. New adaptations. Everything new. I think I'll be returning to KL after 4 months. I think I'm feeling a little homesick now.

-Milo -

Wonderful Pasar Malam Outing.

2008-04-18T02:03:00.010+08:00

My cell group (Chain Reaction) organised a Pasar Malam outing just in time before I leave. And to tell you the truth, it was my first time being in Ampang Mewah Pasar Malam. Although it's so near my house.

A very big thank you to : -

Jeff Mun - for organising this outing and arranging transport.

Joanne - for organising this outing and planning out everything.

Hui Cheng - for accompanying me to Times Square for shopping and then to this outing.

Ooi Tong - for calling the whole ARBS gang over to give me a surprise.

Jason - for fetching me and offering me your car to drive (although I didn't).

Calvin - for fetching Hui Cheng and I to the Pasar Malam.

James Tan - for turning up after ffk-ing last year's camp.

Keng Lik - for the lifts that you gave me and also the mystery that you left for me.

Ching Ai - for joining us in this outing.

Ghai Yan - for being so much more "leng chai" now and making my face red. *laughs*

Soon - for turning up for the first time because I've never met you before.

The other ARBS gang - for turning up and hanging out with me.

The other AGC peepz who turned up - for the great time we had together.

There weren't enough food choices for me. So I ended up eating kaya balls and my favourite Pasar Malam food - "Lok Lok". Yeah, James Tan, Jason and I ate till we turned red. And Keng Lik was just standing there, watching and enjoying the show, while sipping his soya bean.

After that, the whole ARBS gang, Hui Cheng and I went over to Old Town in Ampang Waterfront. I was really glad that we hung out actually. It's been long since I last saw them and now I'm gonna leave them. I was happy and had great fun but sad and depressed at the same time. Guess I was having an emotional battle inside. I really had fun. I really cherished the time. Not to mention that some of us grew up together in Lai Meng.

Thank you. =)

- Milo -

P/S : Thanks guys, for the drink and the Lok Lok that you paid for me. Haha. =P

The Last Thing I Want This Week.

2008-04-16T00:10:00.004+08:00

These days... I felt as if I've been in a torture chamber. Emotionally. When I am alone, I tend to be extra emotional, than before. It's not like this happens everytime. It's just, these days...

If you ask me, I'd answer no. No, it's not about me leaving home. That wasn't the main reason of all these crap. I may appear to be normal in front of you, but I'm telling ya I don't feel so good.

This thing has been bugging me. Day and night. In the beginning it was so delightful. But when time passes by, and when I slowly realise the true story behind it, cut me.

Well, there's a wound in the heart. A deep wound. Or a scar. Call it whatever you like. But suppose it's a wound. Just recovering. And then you just take a knife and stab it again. The wound bursts open. A fountain of blood. The wound just getting bigger. Deeper. More serious. More vulnerable.

Why am I always the victim? Having this wound that would never get a chance to recover completely? Why must I always bleed? I felt as if my heart's crippled by the vein that I keep on closing. This wound is just so sickening. Blood keeps leaking out.

Would you just give me a break? Stop stabbing my heart over and over again. It wouldn't hurt to tell me what you're actually thinking, right? Right? Is that so hard?

Bleeding Love,

- Milo -

No Idea What Title to Put.

2008-04-14T22:59:00.004+08:00

Doctor said I'm stressed... I've got no idea what to stress about. Perhaps the whole leaving home thingy?

Praise God that my swelling eye is slowly recovering. Right now it looks way better than before. And my flu is getting better as well. Thank you, Lord.

On Sunday during morning worship, I was so touched when Uncle Allan asked me to come out and announced my departure. The whole church prayed for me. I was really, really touched. There was a Postal Bible Quiz after that actually. I planned to ponteng because I didn't study for it. But by God's grace, I managed to sit down and do that quiz. Oh well.

After that, went over to the PC fair with Sarah, Mun Foong and David. You know, last day of the fair, soooo many people around. With my lack of sleep and tiredness, I nearly wanted to drop.

Here is my list that I made earlier :

1. ~~Headphones~~

2. ~~Sony Ericsson Earplugs~~

3. ~~MP3 Earplugs~~

4. Webcam

5. ~~1 GB SD Memory Card~~

6. Laptop Skin

Those that I didn't strike out were those I didn't manage to get. And I didn't know that my dad had bought a 1 GB SD Memory Card earlier. So now I have a spare. Wasted my money. Could have used it to buy the laptop skin.

At night, sis and I baked a puding cake for mom's birthday. But truthfully, I was terribly exhausted from the day. Considering that I woke up at 7am that morning. But the night was fun. Happy Belated Birthday again, mom.

All the best for those who are having exams. You know who you are. *wink* =P

- Milo -

Could This Be The Last Time?

2008-04-11T19:10:00.005+08:00

I was supposed to go to the clinic this morning to check my chest X-ray. Plus my right eye was pretty much infected. So called "bengkak". I've been suffering for this swollen eye thingy since three days back. And it sucks.

Seems like plans didn't go accordingly, Ser Xiow Wei and Ng Wei-Liem ffk-ed me last night. We were supposed to go to the PC fair @ KLCC. But they ffk-ed me. And my mom ffk-ed me as well. She wasn't free to bring me to the clinic.

So I went to Midvalley to meet up with Sarah and Evelyn. When I arrived there, they were watching a movie so I walked around alone. With my painful eye. Bought a brown long sleeved blouse.

Kel Sern and Mun Foong was there too. Went to eat at Secret Recipe and I ordered Tom Yum Spagetti.

Went over to Pets Wonderland. Great place to hang out. With all the cute animals! I've always wanted a dog but since I live in a condominium, dogs are not allowed. Sigh. I've rared fish before. I had a big aquarium (a really beautiful one) a few years ago. But dad believes in Feng Shui, so it was given away. It was my dad's precious. I can imagine how he felt.

Anyways, Linus, Sarah Chong and Elena came over. They wanted to watch a movie but Sarah and I had to return home to get ready for tonight's Timothy 2.

Will this be the last time I see my dear RBS 2008 friends in a long time? *Sobs*

- Milo - =(

Sushi @ Timothy 1.

2008-04-09T11:37:00.006+08:00

I crashed Timothy 1 at the Yong's residence last night. I'm actually a member of Timothy 2 but I just crashed Timothy 1 for the sake of crashing it. (Note: It wasn't because of sushi).

Keng Lik picked me up and we just hung around. Topic of discussion was on Homosexuality.

After that was supper. Supper prepared by Davis. He improved a lot compared to last year. Thanks to the working experience at Genki Sushi. The sushi was goooood. But thanks to it, I became fatty Michelle in just one night. Just look at the amount of rice in that plate. Hung around till pass midnight. Oh, did I mentioned that my tears were overflowing when I took a bite of that sandwich with a spoonful of wasabi in it? Tears....

And we're gonna have Big Apple Doughnuts next week @ Timothy 1. I am soooo gonna crash it again. =P

- Milo -

Sony Ericsson Z610i.

2008-04-07T21:52:00.003+08:00

My dad got me a new handphone at last. As he promised.

He wanted me to get a pink one at first but I said no. Imagine Michelle Low, owning a pink phone. Not quite.

I'm through with expensive phones. Phobia with the whole pick-pocket incident which happened to my ex-phone. I don't trust anyone anymore.

This is my first time owning a Sony Ericsson phone. All my life I've been a Nokia user. Except for my spare phone which is an LG phone.

- Milo -

Finally I got my P license.

2008-04-03T13:08:00.003+08:00

Actually, I passed my driving test last Tuesday. Well, at first, I didn't really have much confidence to get through my test, especially that stupid "Bukit". But God took over the wheel for me and helped me remained calm and steady. I was able to make it through. I was most satisfied with my parking. Although in real life parking I kinda suck pretty bad. And I actually suck at driving.

Anyways, I thought that my license would be delivered to my house just like what James Tan said. But I waited and waited... Waited. After one whole week, I tried to call my agent. Voice mail and voice mail again. And then today my dad and I went to the Cahaya branch to collect it myself. Collected it.

And now I finally got the P! But... no car to drive. I'll be leaving KL to stay in campus anyway. Whatever la.

- Milo -

Official Letter from Aimst University

2008-03-30T23:56:00.005+08:00

I just received the official letter by Aimst University. Saying that I am accepted.

So I'll be doing Foundation In Science at Aimst University for a year. Starting this 21st April.

Seriously, I don't wanna leave KL. But what to do, my dad insisted on this thing.

And I got to know a couple of people who will be going to Aimst as well. Just that I haven't met them face to face yet. And Ming Wai is there, but he doesn't acknowledge my existence. I don't know him either.

I don't get to go to college. I don't get to be called a college girl. But I'm straight going into University. Uni girl then. =P

Administration Building and Great Hall.

Medical and Biological Sciences Complex.

The Library (at night).

- Milo -

Returned from Penang Island.

2008-03-29T11:33:00.005+08:00

Can you believe it?

I went to Penang on Wednesday. Spent the entire day travelling and stopping by to grab the good food of Penang.

But on Thursday, I had to spend my whole entire freakin' day in a mall. Gurney Plaza. From morning till night. And I walked and walked. Tried on clothes. Bought a white shirt from Padini. Ate and walked. Watched two movies: - Water Horse (Legend of The Deep) and 27 Dresses. I liked Water Horse a lot. =) I think I was able to memorize all the shops and the whole mall that day. I was B-O-R-E-D. Yeah, you know how I felt.

And I didn't even get to go to the beach! There wasn't any chance. =(

But the one thing I got to experience was the ferry. It ships cars across from the Island back to the big land. I enjoyed that. Even for a few minutes.

That's it. I don't think I wanna follow my mom to Penang for her business trip again. If I were to spend the entire day at the mall.

- Milo -

Taming The Tiger Event @ PJGH.

2008-03-24T18:45:00.003+08:00

Tony Anthony's Taming The Tiger is back again this year! But this time we had Jamie Kidd as the speaker. Ex-RBS students were required to usher and I was one of the usherers. Mun Foong's mom picked me up from Bangsar LRT station and we were at PJGH half an hour early. I got to see the worship team do their practices and the drama team do their rehearsals. I liked the drama. The story line's interesting and touching. Good for non-Christians to watch. =)

Ushering wasn't really bad. Just that I needed to smile and smile and smile... and greet the guests and lead them into the huge hall of PJGH. A lot of people were present so there weren't enough seats. We, the usherers had to stand, and stand, and stand throughout the event. For about 4 hours plus? Well, if you wanna know what Jamie Kidd talked about that night, come to UKRC hall again this coming Saturday, 29th March, 7.30pm. Ampang Gospel Centre will be organizing a Youth Easter Celebration. A lot of fun will be waiting for you to experience. For more infomation, call me. =P

Back to PJGH, after we called it a night, the RBS students gathered around. Those from NS came back for Easter. I had two burgers which showed how hungry I was. Memories of RBS came flashing back because we were at PJGH. It was good to see John Khor back again because he wasn't present in any of our reunions. The night... was pretty good actually. Glad to see Nick Chan, Christina, Jeremy Khoo and Cat from SJGC.

Tomorrow's my driving test, so... please pray for me. I suck at the "Bukit". T_T

- Milo -

Drama Workshop @ SJGC.

2008-03-20T22:10:00.005+08:00

I was up by 6am this morning, washed up and got ready for my programme of the day, as written above. I left my house at 7am sharp but after walking down I realised that I left my phone on the dining table. Oh great. So I had to pick it up back at home again. So this time I left Tiara Ampang at 7.10am but I only the bus came at 7.20am. Reached Ampang Park LRT Station at about 7.30am. It was a bit quiet as it was a public holiday. Less people waiting for the train and I was pretty scared. I never trusted anyone around me anymore eversince I lost my phone last week. And then I got into the train and took off to KL Central. I had to wait for more than 20 minutes for that KTM train to arrive at the platform and a can of iced Nescafe was all I had to fill my empty stomach. When it arrived, it took me to Subang Jaya Station where I was picked up by Jeremy's mom.

Colin Kirton helped open my eyes today. I actually got to experience many things and different other ways of acting. It improved my spontaneity a lot. And I realised that concentration was very very essential and I never took it seriously because there were a lot of laughters and teasing going around whenever I was in a play (a non-professional one, of course). And I always thought that I have the right tools and right skills in acting. Turns out to be totally wrong because I tend to get overconfident at times. We were given a simple script to memorise but required to act it out in different scenarios based on that same particular script. And it was amazing that many angles were clearly seen and different expressions and impressions given to people. I've always thought that I love acting and that I could handle it easy. Seems like this workshop has proven me wrong. Very wrong. Acting is not easy. Just the discipline of the rehearsals can make your hair stand. Colin said something very interesting about the statistics that showed the amount of energy an actors uses on stage for 2 hours is equal to the energy of a steel worker used in eight hours. One thing I should change, I should not just stick to one particular style of acting and the predictable ones, but rather the more... unpredictable? I don't know what word to use but it's good to give surprises to the audience. Oh ya, stage managing. Imagine the fuss one has to face. And there are so many more that were to be learned but how can it be done in just a day? It is a no wonder that Performing Arts courses in colleges are so expensive.

I was thinking to myself actually. Being in the school's drama team for more than 3 years, I played main, leading roles most of the time. Usually as a guy cuz' I'm in a girls' school. And there was what I noticed - I got so used to being in the spot light and playing lead roles until I suck at playing supporting roles. In Chinese words, we call them the "ke le fe". Yeah, I was never goot at playing supporting roles. But I am totally aware that supporting roles are very important as well. I don't know, I just prefer playing lead roles. I find that I could express more and have much more confidence. Hey, I like spot light roles but it doesn't mean that I like the popularity and all the credit, alright? We're talking about acting skills man! It's just... me. XD

And it was a long journey back home almost before night falls. And it was raining. Great. I need to get to bed now. All the best to all actors and actresses out there. Cheers. =)

- Milo -

When I Woke Up the Sun Ain't Shining?

2008-03-19T13:08:00.010+08:00

It was a typical day today. Me not having any plans to go anywhere. I lazed around on my bed first thing when I openned my eyes. Not attempting to get up right away to wash up.
I figured out that I ought to have my driving lessons today. So I called Uncle 7. He said he forgot about it. Okay fine.

I woke my sister up and told her to study. But she ended up hogging on the computer again. Leaving me with nothing to do. Then I remembered I have a Postal Bible Quiz next month. So I continued reading the Book of Acts.

Mom called and I walked sis to the car. Mom handed me a gift. She said the gift was from Aunt Fanny. I unwrapped it and whaddaya know! A Genuine Christine Dior Watch! My heart filled with joy. My Polo Club watch I got for my Christmas present in 2007 was enough for me. And now I got a Christine Dior watch! It ain't no imitation because I personally think that fake watches are a waste of money.

Do I still need to cry over that?

- Milo -

I am Back.

2008-03-18T18:54:00.013+08:00

Forgive me people... Forgive me for not updating for so long. Blame the Internet at my house. It ain't working properly for sooooooo many days. I know I know. Some of you, in fact, I think MANY of you, must've given up reading my blog. I guess some of you who were consistent readers have already given up. Well, I haven't given up on my own blog yet! So, don't go! You see, I can only use the Internet if my sister is gone to school. For many reasons actually.

Okay, since I am back on track, I guess I'd give you guys a bit of an update. When I finished RBS on the 31st of January, a few days later I had to fly over to the east of Malaysia to return to my kampung which is located in Sabah for CNY. A small town named Sandakan. For ten days. And then there were RBS reunions I've been attending. Driving lessons of course (I took my Undang test last December). And then there were hang outs to catch up with my old friends. Collecting my SPM results then - oh boy, I cried for two days. Those of you who knew my results must think that I'm silly, but hey, I expected more which was why I cried. And before that, I lost my beloved handphone. Yes. I LOST MY DEAREST BELOVED HANDPHONE. It was being pick pocket in a bus while I was on my way to watch 10, 000 B.C. Oh friggin' thief, if I get my hands on you you're so gonna be burried in my backyard. As if I can. Oh well, I'd just have to wait for God's miracle to happen.

Anyways, here's a lil' something: -

I'll blog again. Gotta go now. Love ya!

- Milo -

Back from RBS but Leaving for Sabah later.

2008-02-06T01:09:00.000+08:00

Hey people it's been long! Yes I am back from RBS but I'll be leaving for my hometown Sandakan, Sabah in a few hours time. It's 1.12am now and I am supposed to wake up at 4am later to get ready for my flight at 6am. Well, I have a lot of things to blog about RBS but look at the time! Sorry guys I can't stay to blog about it. I can tell you this thing 1st though, RBS ROCKED BIG TIME! Okay I'll go over to the Cyber Cafe in Sandakan and I'll update on more stuff, such as pictures? Will be travelling to Kundasang a few days after the first two days of CNY, I dunno when. It's gonna be pretty and I'll try to capture pictures cuz' my dad finally lets me use his digital camera. Alright I'd better get going or else this will not end I'm afraid. Catch ya later folks! Gong Hei Fat Choi...! =D

- Milo -

Leaving For RBS.

2007-12-26T09:49:00.000+08:00

First of all, I'd like to wish all of you a Merry Christmas although it's over. Basically I spent my Christmas eve and Christmas day shopping, lunch and dinner. I love the family dinner my dad brought us to one of my favourite restaurants, i.e., Rendezvous Steak Garden near Bukit Bintang. Bought myself earrings (again), a new pair of sport shoes and some clothes while shopping with sis and Shuk Hang.

Anyway, I'll be leaving for RBS in about an hour's time. Believe it or not, I haven't finished packing yet and my mom is so going to sound me. My family's bringing me up to Tanah Rata in Cameron Highlands (where RBS is located) and they are going to play around while I attend the school. I will have to surrender my handphone to the staff when I reach there because no handphones are allowed at the camp. So I won't be able to answer your calls and smses till AFTER 31ST JANUARY 2008. I'm gonna miss you guys. Graduation Night will be held on the 31st Jan 2008 at PJ Gosple Hall. Those of you who are interested to come do come and visit! The function starts at 8pm.

I gotta go now. All the best for those of you getting your PMR results and school ahead. Happy school reopening next year! (Yay... no more school for me!) =P

- Milo -

My Birthday and Christmas Party.

2007-12-21T01:28:00.000+08:00

First of all my birthday was on the 18th of Dec, which was two days ago, oh wait, three days ago cuz' I'm now blogging at 1.32am. Basically, I didn't do much on my birthday. Just spent some hours having lunch with my family and also dinner at Jalan Bukit Bintang. Thanks mom and dad! Oh, not forgetting the presents I received too, thanks a lot as well though there weren't many. At least it's better than nothing.

I also wanna thank my sister for making me such a wonderful mango pudding as my birthday cake. It's beautiful.

I think what made me smile throughout the day was the lovely smses I received which made my inbox too full to store in anymore messages. I wanna thank those who sent me those smses. Thanks a lot Darren, Janice, Navva, Kun Hui, Yvonne, Angie, Michelle Wong, Hui Cheng, Cheng Wen, Kamal, Rayson, Jin Yuen, Jamie, Sarah Tai (I'm so glad you remembered and I miss you!), Ariff, Arika, Kar Mun, Edwin, Kennard, May Lyn, Davis, Jason, Izmin, Francis, Yu Han, Diyana, Xiow Wei and others which I didn't mention. A big hug and thank you to you guys. You people are really precious in my heart.

The Best SMS Received aka My Favourite:

"Mi! On your birthday I want you to know, how much I appreciate the special person you are and the caring things you do. I want to thank you for being the kind of person who puts others first, and who can always be counted on for a warm smile, a word of encouragement and a helping hand. You've enriched my life in so many ways, and I hope you know how important you are to me. God bless you. -Angie-

The Hottest SMS Received:

Happy Birthday to the drama queen Mich aka Bitch! Love you always. Loves, hot mama bitch!

-Arika-

The "Zha Dou" SMS Received so far:

Happy Birthday! Wish you get your driving license soon. XD -Rayson-

The next day (19 Dec) wasn't much, I just went out and did some video shooting. Plus the afternoon was rather hot.

And yesterday (20 Dec), I went to Pudu with my parents in the morning. I got up pretty early anyway. Went over to Ampang Point to do some last minute shopping on my gift exchange. And then washed up to rush over to church for our youth Christmas party. I was put in charge of the gift exchange session. Thank God Davis, Rachel and Mun Wai was there to help me at the reception cuz' there were more than 90 people turned up for the party. Overall, the party was pretty okay. I can tell that the people were pretty shocked to see my face in the video, cuz' they never expected me to be in it. And I was the main character's girlfriend as well, in the video la of course. Whatever it is, I believed I could do better but what's done is done. So no complaining. Just that I look fat in the video (SUCKS!). Anyhow, back to the gift exchange thingy, I was glad that Andy and Joanne helped me out, if not I could've died out there because the presents were too many. Plus Sweet May, Joy, Yvonne, Rachel and Elaine were there to help, so the event pretty much went through smoothly. After that, I went to yum cha with the AGC gang and a few guys from ARBS who came back. I was certainly glad to see Calvin joining us again. Guys, thanks for coming and hope to see you guys soon as well.

I think I gotta go now. I've been out the whole day non stop doing stuff and I'm beat. I'll be opting for a movie tomorrow. Hopefully either "Enchanted" or "The Golden Compass". And then a lil' Christmas shopping will do the trick. I don't know where yet, probably wandering around the Bukit Bintang area. So long for now folks! =)

-Milo-

Of Parties and Sleepovers.

2007-12-17T18:53:00.000+08:00

Okay guys, just a lil' update here but it's gonna be about how I spent three consecutive days right after my church camp.

Firstly it was a BBQ party held at Mr. Foo's place on the 14th December. All of us tuition mates are assigned to bring our respective foods to the party. I bought Cheese Choc from Secret Recipe. =P Basically the guys were in charge of setting up the BBQ grill and fire while us girls, were in charge of the food instead. Shaf's salad I can say was the best of all during that night. Take a look at the food that we prepared.

The dinner was a blast but the fun was at the game of "Truth and Dare". So yeah, all of us gathered around and spun the bottle. Oh wait, we had alcohol that night but it was only a bottle of Martini, Heineken and Sherry each. Don't worry, none of us were drunk that night plus we took these alcoholic drinks under the permission and supervision of Mr. Foo. So the game of "Truth and Dare" went on and it was WILD. Now I don't wanna elaborate on that but if you would like to know the details you can approach me thank you. =P

Hightlight of the game:

Joshua and Nicholas took up a bet and they FRENCHED KISSED. In the end they won RM50 each for doing so. I shall call it Brooke Back Mountain Version II cuz' to tell you the truth I got pretty turned on seeing Nicholas being such an active kisser. Man, his girlfriend is just so darn lucky. Sadly, I don't think I can post up the video taken because I will get murdered by the end of the day. Well, they weren't alone anyways, I was a victim of being kissed, "possed" and "lied down on". I like Wooi Liang's hip thrust and Po Leen's lap dance. Go on, let your imagination run free but NOT TOO WILD I'm tellin' ya.

The dance floor was next, and me, Po Leen, Shaf, Nicholas and Kenn were pretty much havin' a good time dancing and sweating. The party ended around midnight.

Alright, next. On the 15th of December. I got up early and travelled to Pavilion to meet up with my fellow ex-classmates for brunch. Went into Pizza Hut, met a new friend named Jian (Nadira's friend), and chit chatted away. Nice meeting you by the way, Jian. He's a really nice guy. =) There were three of these "Phantom of the Opera"-looking characters at the lobby. Left Pavilion at 2pm and proceeded to church for youth service. In the evening, I had to travel all the way to Sri Tiara located in Bangsar for a family dinner. One of my grandaunt only has 6 more months to live due to cancer. I didn't get to snap some pictures but lemme tell ya, the place was damn beautiful and grand. Owned by the Singaporeans.

This was my dish.

Pretty weren't they?

Me, Nadira, Xiowei and Jian.

Nadira, my ex-boss aka Head Prefect.

After that, on the 16th of December, I got up early again to attend HELP University College's Open Day. So far what I have in mind now is taking A levels at HELP, with the subjects of Biology, Chemistry and Mathematics. One more additional subject, I am still confused on whether or not should I take Further Mathematics or Physics (I suck at Physics). Anyway, the preview was pretty tiring. Rushed over to Shaf's house after everything and settled in for some slumber party. She's gonna leave for the UK soon so we wanted to spend the whole night with her. We ended up playing "Truth and Dare" again. And I was dared to FRENCH KISS IKA. Watched a horror movie after the game, entitled "The Shutter". Not bad for a movie, I kind of like it. Pretty eerie too. Had supper and then a heart-to-heart talk with the girls and Nick. Too bad Josh couldn't join us for long if not it would be better. We ended up sleeping for only an hour. Headed to KLCC after that for Starbucks and some walk around. The SALES! Well, I am going so miss Shaf for sure, I cried.

Don't worry, we were just being "sandwiched". Not dirty at all. =P

Before watching "The Shutter".

At Marks and Specers, KLCC. Lingerie Department.

5 years of friendship. I love you, Shaf.

Okay guys if I don't sleep now, I can be said to be awake for the last 24 hours so I need to sleep. Not forgetting that TOMORROW is my BIRTHDAY anyway. Chiao love ya' all! =)

P/S: I have insufficient photos here, more coming up after getting em'.

- Milo -

Just Came Back from Camp.

2007-12-14T08:41:00.000+08:00

This year's camp theme is MAD. And that is "Make A Difference". So far so good. I pretty much enjoyed the camp. And I was pretty shocked that the people whom I did not expect to come turned up and the people whom I've been praying for did not turn up. I only got to know that one day before the camp. Basically, Jason, Oii Tong, Ghai Yan, Yu Han, Cheong Hing, Tong Leong and the other boys from ARBS turned up. Thanks to their senior who invited them. To my sorrow, James Tan couldn't attend due to some reasons. I don't think I want to elaborate much about this camp, because there are just so much to elaborate on and I do not know where to start. The journey to the camp site at Jeram Besu, Pahang was fun with Kevin and back was pretty thrilling and dizzy with Pang. You drive well, Pang. Well done.

I'll post up some pictures when I get them as soon as possible. Highlight of the camp was the Team Building activity. I'm glad that my group, Barnabahs, won the 1st place thanks to our extreme team work. I remembered well on our 1st station and our 3rd pyramid we built. That was the best man! Actually, it was the most simple yet unique pyramid man kind has ever built in human history. Haha kidding. Too bad I don't have the photo to show you guys. Well, the one thing I dislike bout' this camp is the cleanliness. I thank God that girls used the rooms instead of the dorms.

Another thing, I came home with rashes over my legs and hands. My sister's condition is worse than mine though. The cause of it, team building activity where we had to crawl on the mud and play with mud. Plus, the weather condition was about the same as in KL, rainy. My skin's itching all over. Campers, you guys who got the rashes, drink lots of pineapple juice and eat lots of pineapples. Just make sure you don't hit the toilet too often.

This camp has really encouraged me to help bring more people to church. The video clip entitled "A Letter From Hell" really openned many of our eyes. Dear Christians, please check it out if you can. My group's name was Barnabahs, which means, to encourage. And now I have learnt to encourage other people more instead of keeping to myself. Making a difference in other people's lives, that's what I wanna do. I will TRY to cut down my bad habits. I will give it a try to be cheerful always and not let little things get in my way of smiling. I hope I'll be able to show a good testimony to others. Most importantly, my relationship with Jesus, closer. Hope RBS will do better.

Alright, you guys will get bored if I go on. Here are my previous years of nametags from the various camps I've attended from 2003 till 2006.

And here's this year's nametag. 2007.

Till the next entry guys! Muaks! =) Boy I miss the camp. ARBS guys, thanks for coming. I hope this camp has MAD in your lives.

P/S: Oh Jason oh Jason, you so sexy me loving your eyes and will drive you crazy again. Muahahaha..... =P

- Milo-

Long Day For Yesterday.

2007-12-05T19:49:00.000+08:00

I got up at 9 plus in the morning yesterday. Was a bit late when I reached church for carolling practice. Was supposed to be there by 10am but ended up being there at 10.20am? The Christmas carols for this year are a bit different from the previous years. Added a couple of new songs and I am liking the fact that we are singing Acapella for "White Christmas". =D I was supposed to join the youth for carolling at Great Eastern mall at 2pm followed by Joy's birthday party at Times Square but I couldn't join them. Instead, I went home at about 12pm ++ and changed. I went off to KLCC with Kenn. Walked around when we got separated by the crowd. Bumped into Suet Yee. Man, she slimmed down a lot. Looking even hotter now. Felt so good after talking her. It has been such a long time.

Later in the afternoon, walked over to Shaf's house. Accompanied by Kenn. Thanks so damn much man! Went back to KLCC again to meet Joshua. Waited at Starbucks for Nicholas, Wooi Liang, Wai Sheng and Po Leen. I had a Frappucino Chocolate Chip Cream. Talked about life after SPM. Talked about our future. Talked about other funny stuff. Talked about THROWING MR. FOO A BARBEQUE PARTY. Planned everything. Called other people.

Then we went to the Ground floor. To Mont Blanc, Aigner and the Dunhil. Just to search for Mr. Foo a fountain pen. Found one finally at Dunhil. And you know, how costly it can be. The best thing is, we are going to get our names engraved onto that pen.

Left KLCC at 5pm. Reached home and took a bath and tidied my room a little. It has been very messy for a while. Called Jeff later on. Said he'll pick me up in the evening. At 8pm ++ he picked me up. Drove to his house and waited for him to take a shower. Picked Yvonne Teh and Wai Kit up. These two, I haven't seen them in such a long time. Drove to Kuan's Pandan Indah. And that was 10pm. Had Tom Yam noodles and it was lovely. =D Chatted and chatted. How I miss those moments we used to have. At midnight, Jeff and Yvonne accompanied me up to my apartment. Thanks guys!

Today, I went to church again with sis. Practiced songs for our carols. Practiced on the acapella. That's all for now. More updates soon. =)

- Milo -

My First Procedure of Getting a License.

2007-12-03T03:48:00.000+08:00

I woke up before 7am today just to get ready for a 5 hours lecture on Undang. Arrived at Surfine Hitech Ampang before 8am and Uncle 7 took us all driving students up on a van and all the way to Hulu Langat where the main office of Surfine Hitech is. Got the registration done and everything, went into the lecture room and ya da ya da... 5 hours long. The highlight of the lecture was a short video clip, about how a guy and his coffee can actually cause such a freakishly freaking huge accident on the road for just a few minutes. Oh, I really pity the police car. And the tree log... Can't describe it here. You gotta watch it yourself to see it. Final Destination-like. Anyways, the whole day has just gone by like this at the centre. Uncle dropped me off at the Ampang LRT station where my dad picked me up. He drove me and my sis to Secret Recipe. Bought a slice of Tiramitsu, Cheeze Choc and Carrot Slice Brownie each.

Actually I'm just quite bored here. I couldn't sleep cuz' I slept just now. So I decided to come online and update. =)

- Milo -

Officially Merdeka-ed!

2007-11-30T23:29:00.000+08:00

When it is all said and done. Yesterday (30.11.2007) was the last day of SPM for me. Those who are not taking Accounts have probably merdeka-ed few days back. Finally I have waited till this day. No more school uniforms, no more waking up so damn early to catch the bus, no more rushing on homework, no more studying till dawn, no more TUITION, and no more HIGH SCHOOL! I felt kinda sad after leaving the exam hall cuz' I know I am going to miss the moments I have been through.

It was Accounts 1 and the paper ended at 9.25am. Dad came to pick me up and took me to eat Chee Cheong Fun for breakfast. It's been long since I last stepped into that stall. Been there since more than ten years ago. Went home after that and I practically spent my whole day watching TV and sleeping. I was supposed to clear up my books in the living room and my room but attempt failed cuz' of my laziness. I also have a feeling that my procrastinating habits over getting more and more dominant each day. Let's just hope not as I have tonnes to catch up with.

I'm having a headache on planning a date for Mr. Foo's party, cuz' the dates suggested will clash with my Youth Camp which will be on the 10th till the 13th. Please let the party be on the 9th at least, please please please... To my disappointment as well, the Genting road trip which we were so enthusiastic about before that is cancelled. Sabilah just called me. More than 10 people won't be able to make it so what's the point of calling it a class road trip?

And, the thing that shocked me most is getting to know that Vincent has been in London all these while. Since March! I didn't know that until we had a long chat a moment ago. Vincent, when you come back to Malaysia (God knows when), make sure you come and visit me.

So, yeah. That's it. I can't call myself a high school student no more. So long, farewell. I'll still be seeing that school as I'll be fetching my sister next year anyway. Chiao folks! Wanna get to bed. I need a break. Oh... bed.

- Milo -

Tomorrow is SPM

2007-11-11T03:25:00.000+08:00

Yupe, it's almost 4am now and I'm still on the net. I cried all of a sudden while reading History. I thought of my teachers in high school. Now I am beginning to miss them a lot. I regret for not appreciating the moments I had with them. It's too late to turn back now. It's too late to apologise. I miss them loads...

I really need to get my butt on BM and History within 24 hours. If not I'll be doomed for sure. I'm only left with Form 5 Sastera and some Karangan topics for BM. I really do hope and pray hard that I'll be able to elaborate and crap out what I can for my long essay. I am bloody anxious for that paper. Today me, Shafika and Nick went to Kennard's house for a study session. It did help a lot when Shaf asked questions and we answered. That really helped me realise that I am dead for the Form 4 syllabus. Gotta read up! Sejarah paper 2? On Tuesday. Oh, Kennard has a new name. And it's "Mr. Shafikah".

Okay, I wish all my fellow fifth formers to do their best in this exam. I pray hard for us all. God is with us, who can be against us? Chiao folks! =)

- Milo -

Next week: SPM

2007-11-07T05:54:00.000+08:00

Counting down. Next week's SPM. The first paper as usual, will be Bahasa Melayu, the most frightful paper to me. Especially the essay paper, cuz' I depend a lot on my long essay in order to score an A. I haven't been attending school frequently these days, and Pn. Chu has been chasing after me to resit for my Accounts test which I missed last week. She must be damn angry at me.

I've been having really odd sleeping habits these days. Often ended up sleeping on the sofa. Nick and Kenn came over to my house at midnight and we studied together till dawn (they usually fall asleep for two hours on the sofa and I will have to become their biological alarm clock). I can't say that I'm very well prepared. All I can say is that I really want three more months to prepare. My eating habits are also becoming weird lately as well.

Although the stress, there are a number of times which I took a breath. Like last week I followed my mom and aunt all the way to Nilai to visit my cousin brother and he took me around iNTI college campus. It is a really nice building and, huge. And on Monday midnight, Nick, Kenn and I watched Transformers before burning the oil. And just now, I just got off the phone with Raymond for almost one and a half hours. Chatting with him was a big relief. I miss him so much.

I guess I'd better be going. Gotta read my Sejarah text book. The second day of next week is will be Paper 2. Good morning you guys! It's almost 6.10am now. Get your asses out of bed and go to school. =P

- Milo -

My MP3 Player

2007-10-27T05:11:00.000+08:00

It's dawn now and I've just finished my revision for Additional Mathematics. Just dropping by here cuz' I wanted to insert some new songs into my MP3 player. My MP3 player is messed up now. Some songs gone and some songs came in from no where. Please people, those of you who wants to borrow my device, do not remove any songs. Plus, if you wanna transfer your data to another location using my device, please ask my permission and I hope it's urgent. Thanks for your cooperation. I'm gonna have to fix everything back into position after SPM. Sucks...

Oh well, I'm going to bed. Hope to get up and continue to study. Hopefully at the KL Library? *Yawns*. Good morning folks!

- Milo -

Feeling Shitty

2007-10-22T00:14:00.000+08:00

20 more days to SPM... Whatever it is, the fact is, SPM is coming. And I am damn scared. I can't say that I am fully prepared like Nadira or Chung Yang. I regret paying not much attention during my Form 4 year and earlier this year. I've been taking time for granted. I should not engage myself into too many activities until I can barely breathe properly everytime I come home. I'm so sick and disappointed in myself. I should have known better what was really going on around me. I should have stepped into reality earlier. Yes, I wanna do well in my exams. My parents expect a lot from me. And I believe that I have pride in this. What if I scored less than 7 A's out of 11 subjects? I'll be damn ashammed of myself. I want more time to study. I wanna get rid of my procrastinating habit. I want serious concentration when reading.

Now don't go telling me that my expectations are too high or just do your best and whatever crap. Look, I've heard enough of those advices and it's flowing out of my ears already. I know very well and very clearly that everybody has to endure this and those past seniors have been through the same thing. I know most of the teenagers out there are struggling with the same problems with me or even worse problems. I'm just a mere typical teenager like you, nothing more nothing less. Whatever. Now if you're feeling what I'm feeling, yes, let's suffer together-gether. But when it's over, it's over. WTF.

Biting her own lips,

- Milo -

The First Day of Raya was Yesterday.

2007-10-15T01:11:00.000+08:00

Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfirtri to all my muslim friends! Of course, open houses all over but Arika didn't have one this year. Yesterday, me, Arika, Davis, Suet Mei and Xiowei took the LRT to Titiwangsa station. From there we got picked up by Kamal to attend his open house. After us he picked up Christy, his college friend. This was my first time meeting her and she's great! Miss you Christy! Haha. Anyways, we had to cram in Arika and Xiowei in the front seat (Kamal's car has a three seats in the front) so it was Kamal driving, followed by me, Arika then Xiowei. So Kamal had three girls crammed in the front seat together with him. We arrived at his house and his house is HUGE! So cozy and comfy. The gorgeous ones are the pool, his study room, the indoor garden, living room, his kitchen (it's as big as my room) and his big big room! The moment I stepped into the house, I met Shaun's parents. Also met Nicholas, Martha and two others but I forgot their names. Fooled around for a while and Shaun's sister, Sharon came over and she was one of the coolest girls! I like her man. Took some pics: -

That's Christy standing on the right. =)

Crammed into Kamal's big room after eating. Kamal's grandma is a really nice lady and she makes the greatest punch and rendang! =P Played video games in his room and chit chatted away.

In Kamal's room and he's with his PS 2.

Myself in Kamal's Jester hat. =P

Nice move. =D

We left around 3 plus and went over the Ampang Point. On Raya the area was closed but Secret Recipe was open. Ordered a chocolate milkshake and Suet Mei ordered a Chocolate Walnut chip something something.

On the same night after lepak-ing at Davis' house. Xiowei and Arika slept over at my place. Of course Davis came along too. Did many crazy things. We studied a little little bit but attempt failed. Watched a Rapture video and slept around 4am. We got up by 8am to sneak Davis out so that my grandma wouldn't find him. Haha, sorry Dav. Had fun that night. We should do it more often after SPM. =D

We call this Stupidity.

Soft toy mania.

Such Drama Queens.

SPM is coming. Therefore we must study very hard.

We ain't doing anything unholy. I gave her my first kiss in Primary 6 anyway.

Thanks for reading. Have a pleasant holiday!

- Milo -

p/s : Christy, thanks for the pics! =)

2007-10-11T16:33:00.000+08:00

I couldn't sleep on Tuesday night. And it was due to this stupid reason - I was hungry. I was lazy to get up and make myself something and then brush my teeth again and go back to sleep. So I stayed up listening to music and sms-ing friends instead of studying. How could I study with a growling stomach? Yesterday I came home from school wanting to take a nap, attempt failed. After Physics tuition, mom took me to a nearby restaurant and I had claypot chicken rice. Came home and went online. I was really tired but I gotta wait for my food to digest. Chatted with Mitch, Jason, Kyle and Kennard. They went offline early except for Kennard. And he said he'll teman me till I sleep. How sweet! =P Haha.

Anyways, I woke up at 1pm plus today. Feeling a little lazy and drowsy. I think I slept too much. It is a holiday for all school students today and tomorrow due to Hari Raya on Saturday. Did my Biology homework for tuition later but found out that there ain't tuition today. So my sis and I decided to order pizza for breakfast + lunch. Ordered Hawaian Chicken, Seafood Lagsania and Breadsticks. And we got a free bottle of 7up! =D But hey, the calories... I am so going to cycle later. Plus some sit ups. I think I am kinda rusty in jogging and pilates now. Haven't been jogging for a long time. I am supposed to study now but I don't have the mood now. So much for stressing over SPM being near. Oh yeah I am stressed for that darn exam, which explains why I didn't sleep well these days and, I'm losing lots of hair. My stamina has gone down too. What the heck, one more month to go and I'm outta high school. Just wait... Counting.

- Milo -

Super Hip Hop.

2007-10-07T02:54:00.000+08:00

On Friday, I got a short notice about going up to Genting Highlands to attend the MRCA 15th Anniversary Dinner. The theme was Super Hip Hop. I was like, hip hop again?? Yes, gimme a break. Last year was Hip Hop Night, and this year was Super Hip Hop. Anyways, my family and I left the house at around 5pm and reached First World Hotel at 6 plus. At 7.45pm, we went over to the Convention Centre where the event was held. Not many people dressed as a hip hop, maybe because last year many didn't as well. There was a dance competition and the judges were those from So You Think You Can Dance. I was pretty upset the Electroshock didn't win, they were really good. Evo 11 performed break dance, and they were all girls.

HIGHLIGHT OF THE NIGHT :

I met my Dance Partner again from last year! I was damn shocked that he actually still recognizes me! I don't even know his name. It's too good to be true. I missed the fun. The greatest dance partner ever!

Anyways ,the rest was pretty much ok, just the stupid dance floor. B-O-R-I-N-G. I danced half way through I didn't wanna dance anymore. The music sucked. And, my dance partner ain't at the dance floor with me, he left early. Till we meet again next year! =P My sis and I shared a room that night.

Just me chilling out before going to bed.

The next morning after breakfast, Yvonne and I did a little shopping at First World and we came across the museum of Ripley's Believe It Or Not. I had to check it out. There was this Fertility Statue from Africa. You touch it and you'll get pregnant. Hmmn... Unbelievable? Believe it. The front part of the museum was pretty boring, but the middle and the end turned out to be pretty spooky. Due to our check out time at 12 noon, mom called and we had to rush. I didn't explore the interesting part because it was only 5 minutes to 12. We ran our way out and nearly got lost especially in the Largest Tie Collection session. I am definitely going back to the museum after SPM. I am so going to spend the whole day there. =P Here are some pics I took but I didn't really read the captions cuz' of the rush: -

These stuffs are only the beginning. There are more to come and I'll be going back! It's best if I get some sleep now I am really tired. Good night/morning peepz!

- Milo -

Sorry for the Late Update

2007-10-01T18:57:00.000+08:00

It's been quite some time since I last updated. Sorry guys. The past week wasn't really bad for me. It's just that, today is the 1st of October, which means there's only one month left for me to get my butt on the books and then face SPM. Today is also the first day of the PMR 2007 exam anyway. I can't help but miss my PMR year. I know I once mentioned that I hated the year 2005 in my previous Xanga blog, but come to think about it, I actually miss it. Despite having all those ups and downs which I had to encounter during that year, at least they made my life feeling... how to say?? CONTENDED I shall use this word. Haha. It was a pretty crazy Roller Coaster, but what the heck, I was only 15 by then. Still a little girl. And now I am 17. Man, time passes real fast! It's like, one blink of an eye and here I am, with only 2 months left being a high school student (unless of course, I join Form 6 next year). If you ask me which year I would most likely wanna turn back time to, I'd say... Form 4? Although I didn't enjoy this so called "Honeymoon year", but I'd pretty much like to return and focus on my Form 4 syllabus and not having to struggle like I am now. My screwed up "Honeymoon year". Yeah, damn screwed up. Oh well, I know there's gonna be another entry coming up about my high school years again. I'll most probably update you guys when THE time is near...

I guess I'd better get going. Me wanna continue my exercises on Linear Programming in the Form 5 Additional Mathematics syllabus. And I don't think I'll be going to school tomorrow. Most probably not going. Dunno. Tata for now, peepz! =)

- Milo -

Two Events Yesterday

2007-09-23T10:07:00.000+08:00

Yesterday was one of the most important events of all for Ian and Yi Hua. It was their wedding ceremony at Jalan Imbi Chapel. Most of the AGC youths were their and other church members and of course, both of the couple's families. Ian's big smile. That was a really genuine one. When I saw it I felt really happy for him. Anyways, the ceremony started at around 2.35pm. Yi Hua was the most beautiful lady in the world. I love her wedding gown! (Particularly her necklace). Su Ann made them a slideshow and it made me almost wanted to cry. See them so happy, I began to wonder how will it be during my wedding ceremony. But that's gonna be ages away. I'm still seventeen huh. Here are some pics:

During the solemnization.

Carmen and I.

My favourite: Roses.

Carmen fetched me home after the wedding ceremony ended (The photoshoot session and the flower-throwing thingy was pretty fun!). I took a bath and got ready for Grandma's birthday dinner in PJ. Arrived there in time. A few of my long distant cousins joined the dinner but I didn't get to talk to them cuz' I think that was my first time seeing them. I don't know them at all. Although we were sitting at the same table and they are my age. I chatted away with my close cousins who were in their twenties anyway throughout the night. The dinner was pretty good especially the Marmalade Prawns. One of my cousins (Mei Ling) baked 50 cup cakes for the guests. We left the place around ten plus and dropped Grandma at my uncle's house in Bangsar. So that was yesterday. Not much today cuz' I only went to church, came home and watched a documentary on Rapture.

The cupcakes looked like these.

- Milo -

A Visit to the Hospital.

2007-09-18T19:35:00.000+08:00

Today Jeff and Yvonne Teh came to pick me up in the afternoon. We picked up Jee Yann after that and the four of us went over to Hospital Sentosa to visit Joseph. He had water in his lungs a few days ago but thank God he said he's fine and that he is able to be discharged after 3 to 4 days. Joseph seems pretty fine already, of course I hope he gets better. Oh well, God is with you and get well soon. =)

- Milo -

Studying at the National Library

2007-09-15T19:46:00.000+08:00

Today I decided to change my environment of studying. Went to the National Library alone. Well, my sis was with her gang of friends. They studied in the private room while I sat at the public area. Kamal came by. I studied History and Add Maths while he did law. It was pretty tiring after a long day. I left the library at 4 plus. Went for a treat at Secret Recipe. Got two slices of Choc Mud and Classic Cheese (lovely). But I went to McD to and got french fries and chicken nuggets as snacks. =P

- Milo -

Farewell Lunch With Richard, Alexandria and Khai Xiang

2007-09-09T19:29:00.000+08:00

Today after church, almost all of the Amp. Utd. members went to Kuan's Coffee House at Pandan Indah. These three dearest people: Richard, Alexandria and Khai Xiang will be going over to UK to further their studies by the end of this month. We occupied about 5 tables at the outdoor of the coffee house. It's been long since I last ate my real favourite dish (besides Maggie Mee) - Tom Yam noodles. Had Iced Green Tea and chocolate ice-cream after that. They all come in a set for RM9.90. And I wasn't surprised that Wai Kit ate another plate of Nasi Goreng Kampung after his Sambal Fried Lou Shu Fun.

Anyways, Alex and Khai Xiang will be leaving. Richard as well. I enjoyed the times with Alex during our "Catwalk" session and Sushi-making at Davis' house. And, I am so going to miss the Smiling Machine of AGC - Richard. So going to miss his smile. So going to miss calling him PC. Oh well, all the best you three! Goodbye Prince Charming! Haha. =P

- Milo -

31st of August

2007-09-01T21:07:00.000+08:00

Yesterday was our country's 50th Birthday. I failed to go to Dataran Merdeka with Nicholas, Joshua and Po Leen. Most of us couldn't make it. I woke up at around 12.27pm when Jeff called me. I totally forgot about the Tesco shopping and food-cooking session at Davis' house. Jeff picked me up to Tesco anyway. Had KFC for brunch and bought stuffs which were needed for our cooking. Yupe, cooking for the night's Pot Luck and Pool party at Jee Yann's place.

Arrived Davis' house and started cooking. We were split into three groups. Alex's group made Cincau Tong Sui, Davis' group made Sushi and mine made mashed potatoes. The result turned out pretty ok, except for our dear Sushi, because we bought seaweed of Korean quality instead of the nice Japanese's.

Anyway, the Sushi seemed to be pretty pleasant to most people at the party I think. There were plenty of food, namely salad, spagetti, fried stuff, fruits, cakes and others. My stomach was really filled to the top. Chit chatted around while the guys went wild and threw each other into the pool. We ended up at Jee Yann's apartment watching TV1 Live Show before we leave. Enjoyed myself. =)

Hui Cheng and Joseph.

Ernest and Yvonne Teh.

Alex and Mark.

Boiling the potatoes.

Boiling the tong sui.

- Milo -

Reunion of Tiara Ampang Childhood Friends

2007-08-22T15:57:00.000+08:00

Last Monday, we had a reunion of Tiara Ampang childhood friends at Davis' house. The girls consists of me, Yee Vonne, Arika and Jung Min. The guys are Davis, Magna and Yun Jae. Arika and I bought Davis a black T-shirt and a really nice pair of red boxers. He was a bit shocked to see that. It was good to see Jonathan and David at Davis' house again. The BBQ lasted till 9pm + and I missed tuition that night.

The bottom line is, me, Davis and Yee Vonne are having SPM this year. Magna and Jung Min just finished high school and Magna's in Lim Kok Wing College. He is staying all the way in Cyberjaya now. Jung Min will be leaving us this Friday. We just don't see each other as often anymore. I can remember those beautiful memories of us fighting and playing together when we were young. Those swimming, rock climbing and Halloween Trick-or-Treat outings were really something to store in our hearts forever. We were little brats in the past, and look at us now, grown up as full teenagers.

Missing them a lot. I wonder what will happen to us when we all go to college. I hope to have this kind of reunion again. The laughters that we had on that day (it was Davis' birthday) almost collapsed the house. And I love Davis' sushi and his mom's pasta. Thanks Cindy for the chocolate cake. Oh well, it's hard to describe the feeling of hanging out with your childhood buddies again after such a long time. It's just... so valuable. I wouldn't trade it for anything. That's one benefit of living in a condominium like Tiara Ampang. *winl*

- Milo -

The Past Week of Havin' Exams

2007-08-18T17:18:00.000+08:00

My trials started on the 8th of August and it started with Bahasa Melayu, the main subject of SPM. I can say that I didn't really do well in my trials, thanks to last minute and fooling around. It is now that I realised how serious I need to be. Been sleeping for 2 to 4 hours per night for the past one week. I deserved it anyway. But it's school term break this week. Which means I'll have one week to prepare for Biology, Chemistry and erm... Moral (urgh!).

Bahasa Melayu: Not bad. I thought I couldn't do Paper 1 but my essay came up to 3 1/2 pages long.

English: I'm pretty satisfied with my essay this time compared to my previous one.

Modern Mathematics: It was an easy paper. Didn't really do practices though.

Additional Mathematics: Sucks. The hardest paper I've ever sat in my life. Getting 'A', gone.

History: I thought I could ace it but I couldn't remember much of what I studied due to cramming.

EST: Wasn't a problem.

Physics: I don't really fancy this subject anymore. It wasn't OK. I might flunk it.

Accounts: I'm done with Paper 2 and it was OK la. Surprised that I could balance my Lembaran Kerja and Realisasi. Was happy for it. =D

Now it's just Biology, Chemistry, Accounts 1 and Pendidikan Moral.

- Milo -

Xiowei's House

2007-08-04T16:49:00.000+08:00

Bored. I'm blogging this at Xiowei's house now. It's a typical Saturday today. I woke up at 11 plus this morning and I was supposed to go to Low Yat Plaza. But I went to Xiowei's house instead. Learnt about Earth As A Sphere in the Form 5 Modern Mathematics syllabus and I really really hate this chapter. Watched The Making of Disturbia and Fright Plane. Ordered McD too.

I'm just waiting for my dad to pick me up now. Going to AGC later for song fest practice. Catch you guys later! =)

- Milo -

The Biggest Drama in My Life

2007-07-26T16:02:00.000+08:00

All my life I've seen so many dramas, but this one... Just happened a few minutes ago, was indeed the BIGGEST one I've ever encountered, or witnessed. And it all took place in my little home here.

The atmosphere is quiet now. I can only hear the sound of the heavy rain from my window and the noisy tappings coming from my keyboard. Dad is in his room, acting like nothing has happened, but I know that millions of thoughts are running through his mind now.

I've never seen mom so angry before. Not angry as in violently, but angry as in, hurtfully. She rushed out of the house, and I can slightly imagine what's gonna happen in the office. I can feel that she's really hurt, really angry. And I thought I was the one who got hurt in the house, but now, mom's even more hurt. She's feeling worse than me.

So it is goodbye Dewi. Seriously, I don't know what else to elaborate. I'm just too... stunned now. I've been silent since mom left the house.

No, I can't say it's a trauma. But it was a drama. Drama which happened LIVE at my house.

Scared and Shivering,

- Milo -

A Smile Being Turned Upside Down

2007-07-25T16:34:00.000+08:00

Sometimes I get really frustrated with myself. I am just any other teenager who goes through all the ups and downs in life. People always tell me to cheer up and chill. Yes, I've been trying hard to do so. I've been smiling. But Pn. Chu gave me a lecture today. She said the smile I put up, is quite fake. And that she and a lot of people can tell that I'm pressured and unhappy. I tried hard to stop torturing myself. I really did.

Today, was okay. But my smile turned up side down and my mood changed while I was in the canteen after Chemistry class. My heart, which has just finished mended, not yet fully recovered, broke again.

I'm sorry, Suetmei. I'm sorry that I lied to you. I lied to you cuz' I was being kiasu just now. I lied cuz' it really bugs me to know that you know more things than I do about a person whom you don't know at all. It bugs me and makes me such a fool that you know something from him that I don't. But the bottom line is, I got hurt when you told me about that website of his. I was crushed and I felt betrayed that while we were still close, he didn't tell me a thing. Yes, I felt really BETRAYED. And I didn't know about it at all. You may think that I'm just being sensitive again. It ain't a joke. No, I'm not over with it yet. I'm just in the process of recovering. But it got blocked half way through. But, I would APPRECIATE it if you would just let me know about stuffs which I don't know about him, when you get to know about them. Better than to hide it from me. I hate stuffs being hidden from me, especially in this area. So yeah, do me a favour alright dude? Thanks.

It cheered me up a little when I saw Jeff's car and he and Anna waved at me inside. Xiow Wei and I got in and Jeff drove us home. I hope Jeff can come to my house to swim again. That way I'll have the time to talk.

Sad and frustrated,

Milo

My Computer Ain't Workin'.

2007-07-22T21:33:00.000+08:00

I don't think I can update my blog often these days. I'm using my dad's computer now. And yeah, he ain't very pleased with that. My darn computer ain't working! I turned on the switch but the screen remained black and there was this weird buzzing sound coming out from the CPU and then within a few minutes, it just died off. I want it working so badly. It has no idea (well, of course it has no idea) that how much I've been missing out. I can't go online, I can't check my mails, I can't do my presentations, and most important of all, I can PRINT stuff! I'm gonna call the Dell fella tomorrow, and remind me to do so.

My day wasn't as bad. Just that I went out too long for today. It's 9.40pm now. I just got back home. In the morning I went to church, as usual. Then came home for lunch. Went out to Renaissance Hotel with my parents. Went to Low Yat plaza after that. Dad got my sis a new handphone and myself a new 1 GB memory card! Weeee!!!!! =P Despite that all, I got Add Maths homework to rush tonight. And it's proving identities. Hard ones!

Gotta run now. Hope my PC's gonna get well soon. Tata for now! =)

- Milo -

Like Any Other Days.

2007-07-08T14:38:00.000+08:00

My week has been like any other ordinary week. Go to school, come back from school, study, go tuition, study, sleep. Many said I should go get a life. But I say, that my trials are coming up next month, and I'm running out of time. I gotta study. And if it wasn't for that bloody scholarship. Whatever you can name. Just that yesterday I went to ARBS for their IU. Theme is Egypt. Not bad so far. I like the Chinese Yoyo performance best. Anyways, I gotta get going. So much to catch up. I'll see you later, if I can. Chiao! =)

- Milo -

Unhappy

2007-07-04T01:22:00.000+08:00

It's common for us teenagers to go through all these ups and downs in our adolecent stage. I've been feeling quite down lately. Sort of like, depressed, basically unhappy since last Saturday.

On Sunday in church I thought I could enjoy myself in the presence of God and hang out with the youth (i haven't been seeing them for two weeks). But I felt... unhappy. I didn't talk much and my whole body just felt like sinking. The mood ain't there at all. The Chunky Kit Kat bar did help a bit, but it didn't keep me cheered up for a long time. I didn't make it for the steamboat dinner at Ampang Waterfront either.

Yesterday, eventhough my highlight of the day was the movie "Transformers", it didn't quite cheer me up as well especially in tuition at night. I thought I could enjoy myself and be happy around with Jiann Yuh, Anna, Wai Kit, Jee Yann and Michelle Lee, but I didn't really talk much with them. In tuition, I couldn't really talk much with Po Leen, Joshua, Nick, Shaf and the rest. Just felt so... depressing.

Like today, at school I couldn't put up a natural smile either. I just ain't happy. Too many things running into my head and I can't cope up with them.

I gotta run to bed now. In a few hours' time I gotta get up and get ready for school. Cheer me up? I hope you can. Please do. I'd be real thankful. =')

- Milo -

Although Most Things are Almost Over.

2007-06-30T20:32:00.000+08:00

It's after IU now. I just gotta wait till I'm officially retired from my Assistant Secretary of Prefectorial Board on [God knows when] and Community Service Director post on the 1st of July. I'm focusing on my studies, currently. Trials are next month and I haven't even finished covering my Form 4 topics. Yes, I know, call me Dead Meat.

I kinda feel that I'm a bit stressed up now. Almost all the time, my minds are all "Have you done your Chemistry yet?", "Did your Add Maths?", "Still watching Heroes ah? Not guilty meh??". My mind's crazy. Please, someone get me outta there! I don't wanna end up like Michelle Lee *wink* =P What should I do? Yes I know, relax. But it ain't an easy job man.

Time for dinner now. Can't really go online that often these days. My sister has been occupying the computer for her favourite Taiwan soaps. See ya guys! =)

- Milo -

Time Flies

2007-06-20T22:32:00.000+08:00

It's been like, two weeks since I last got on to the Internet. No idea why though, I just didn't have the time to come online. Oh, my dad got himself a new desktop, which is a cool Compaq P4. And I... Well, to be precise, me and my sister, got his Dell desktop! I was happy to get his flat screen computer in my room (good thing for a flat screen, you know how my desk is so packed up). Sad thing, most of the programmes installed in my previous computer ain't in this new baby.

Anyways, last Saturday was our AGC Family Fun and Food Fair. Yeah, I got a couple of injuries due to making burgers out of Anna's electric grill pan. From there, I realised how hard it was and I salute those Ramli Burger sellers by the streets. We made a profit of RM300 I think. When it was over, I got a ride to Great Eastern Mall and back home in Kamal's Cuttie (Fiat Multipla)! =D

Yesterday was pretty dreadful for me. It was Hari Usahawan and my class did the "Rumah Hantu". I'm sure you guys would've guessed who I dressed - Samara from The Ring. Yeap, with my long hair and the height *coughs* =P. But hey, it ain't freakin' easy at all to play Samara. Sabilah and Sasa made me a black well using card boxes, and I gotta be inside, squat down, stand up when the curtains open to scare. Damn my legs are hurtful now and I ain't having a good time walking. I noticed my actions slowed down too due to the pain.

Oh well, so much for all these. One more event coming up - ARGS IU Day "Maasai Madness". This Saturday at 10.00am. Be present for all you who are reading this alright? So much to do, so little time. Yeah, this can be my favourite quote. I'll update you again. See you soon, peepz! Muaks! =)

- Milo -

School Days Are Back!

2007-06-11T17:54:00.000+08:00

Yeap, school days are back. I pretty much didn't get to do what I want to do during the hols. I know I spent a lot of time watching series on TV. Haha.

I enjoyed myself at Roschana's house last Friday. I miss her so much! It was a long journey for us to get to her house, even from Bukit Jalil LRT station, all the way to Bandar Kinrara. Long distance. Basically we did some crazy stuff there. Hanging out with your girlfriends are like one of the best things in the world.

Clockwise from top : Cheng Wen, me, Kun Hui and Roschana. My babes! =P

That's her bear she won.

Just fooling around.

Last weekend was pretty fun. Like on Saturday I went roller blading at Sg. Wang with Kamal and my sister. Well, my falls werent' as serious as the previous one. Just a couple of bruises on my knees, one on the side of my waist and the other on the side of my right thigh, again. We had sushi (man, it's been long since I last ate at Sushi King!). He drove me home with his cool Fiat Multipla car. Damn cute wei! Haha. Thanks for the ride, Kamal.

Yesterday, we were supposed to go to UKRC after finish wrapping books at church. But it turned out to be a rainy evening. Wai Kit drove me and Davis to Olden Ship Pandan Indah for our late lunch. At night, I had to rush my last minute procrastinated work. How bad that was! Slept at 2am!

Anyways, I gotta go for tuition now. God bless and have a nice day! Muaks! =)

- Milo -

2nd Day

2007-06-07T19:26:00.000+08:00

Thank God I called Arika before I went to school. The plan at school was cancelled. I was all dressed up and was waiting for the lift until I called Arika. She told me, plan cancelled. Sigh.

Watched Heroes the whole morning and afternoon. But hey, I did a little bit of accounts, ok? Hehe. Went out for a jog in the evening after that.

Anyways, I better get going. I'm gonna have accounts tuition soon so tata for now! Love ya! =)